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Well, yeah. We are definately not getting back together. I don't know. On one hand, I want to be sad and mope. But I know it won't work now. He's so hateful and angry. I know I'm not meaningless to him and losing me will hurt, but it's time. He won't change, I'm not worth it to him anymore, so it's time to move on. He thinks I'm just a bitch to him, and he deserves it if I am, but I can't take the negativity and... ugh. He isn't the person I fell in love with to begin with and he isn't the person I loved the second time around. He has a way of changing like a chameleon. He's different everyday. And not in a good way. I don't get what I deserve and I get what I don't deserve. I love him to death, I always will just because he's the first, but that's not enough anymore.
I love my friends, though. I don't see why I just think I needed to hang out with Billy everyday. I will never do that to them again. I feel like a terrible person for doing it in the first place. But, I love Haley Cross. I missed hanging out with her so much. I really did. I was really depressed, not just bumbed but actually depressed about not hanging out with her and stuff for the longest time. But, Hasty, Jamie, Haley and I made a promise to move in together. I know, girls are always like "oh, you're my best friend forever, let's move in together, blah blah." But this one, I'm going to stick to it. I really am.
The Powderpuff game was okay. The Jr's lost. I'm so joining next year. I was too broke to afford the t-shirt this year, or I DEFINITELY would have joined! It looked like so much fun. Haha, I sound like such a poor kid... couldn't afford the shirt...
Anyway, I've been hanging out with Derek a lot and I think I like it. I think we could become good friends. And, I think I like Gregory a lot, too. I think I won't be out there too much longer. :)
I'm slowly, slowly getting back to the carefree happy kali that I thought I lost. I'm glad it's back.
I love my friends, though. I don't see why I just think I needed to hang out with Billy everyday. I will never do that to them again. I feel like a terrible person for doing it in the first place. But, I love Haley Cross. I missed hanging out with her so much. I really did. I was really depressed, not just bumbed but actually depressed about not hanging out with her and stuff for the longest time. But, Hasty, Jamie, Haley and I made a promise to move in together. I know, girls are always like "oh, you're my best friend forever, let's move in together, blah blah." But this one, I'm going to stick to it. I really am.
The Powderpuff game was okay. The Jr's lost. I'm so joining next year. I was too broke to afford the t-shirt this year, or I DEFINITELY would have joined! It looked like so much fun. Haha, I sound like such a poor kid... couldn't afford the shirt...
Anyway, I've been hanging out with Derek a lot and I think I like it. I think we could become good friends. And, I think I like Gregory a lot, too. I think I won't be out there too much longer. :)
I'm slowly, slowly getting back to the carefree happy kali that I thought I lost. I'm glad it's back.