so much bullshyt
i am in such a fuckin bad mood....grrrrr. i hate this bs. i hate it! why the fuck does everything always fuck up? as soon as i get that feeling inside, its all down hill from there. what the fuck? it happened before and now its happening again...bro i stayed when noone else would. i fucking made him such a better person....but one fucking inch and a mile is taken. i fucking hate my situation. i swear imma become a fucking nun and not have to deal with shyt anymore. and the thing is, is that i have always had a back up plan, but this time i did that shyt rite, and now imma fucking pay the consequences. we r just too different. we want such different things. you just dont even know. whatever man, i know he wouldnt cheat, but then again why am i feeling like this inside? my feelings have never been wrong b4. never. it was all true. and i remember krissi telling me 4ever ago that i should leave them b4 they hurt me...but i always gave the fucking benefit of the doubt. and i always got shyt apon. fuck this shyt. i know im rite. i need to run away again.....that is the only thing im fucking ggod at! the only thing....and i do it rite. i dont even care anymore. i knew it. im just not fucking good for anyone. im so much better just alone cuz alone i can not be hurt by myself. and whatever the reason may be...even if its not what i think, then obviously something went terribly wrong somewhere....i dont know what the fuck imma do. he promised to not hurt me....but im hurting rite now.....u cant take my pain away, esspecially if it is from u.