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[tinkerbella7]

i think dating erik acted as a shield to what i really felt about things, and now that he's no longer here, it's blatently obvious that i never got over bill, that i want him back, and i don't know how/if he'll ever want me back. i wish there was a painless way to just tell him how i feel without the pressure of losing him as a friend even if he

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[cispt2]

im sorry

[tinkerbella7]

thanks. any suggestions as to what i should do? x

[leapinglion]

I'm sorry, too! What a hard place to be in!! I wish I had some good advice ... where is he now? What is his status?

[tinkerbella7]

yeah... he's the first person i think of when i wake up, and the last person i think of before i go to sleep. it sucks. he's living in portland now, and as far as i can tell, isn't dating anyone. i dont know if it'd be worth telling him this stuff or not... for now, i get to clean monkey cages and ponder over and over what he's up to. frustrating!