For Phil
It's been a year now
since you were here now
and I'll be tryin to heal inside
dedications have all been placed
and I see your resemblance in my face
And on our birthday I'll set an extra wish for you
for you
and I have learned so much since you've been gone
and I have done so little for so long
so now I'll settle up my grievances
and focus on the savory
and wave all these discrepancies away
and I'll peter out these misconceptions
give out faith at my discretion
live a life that you would think was sane
sane
display and changes that they have made
and I wonder if you ever really wanted it this way
and in your memory they even hung a plaque for you
for you
and I have learned so much since you've been gone
and I have done so little for so long
so now I'll settle up these grievances
and focus on the savory
and wave all these discrepancies away
and I'll peter out these misconceptions
give out faith at my discretion
live a life that you would think was sane
sane
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So, this week hasn't been the easiest one for me, but hey, what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger, or so that is what everyone says.. I really hope that is true. I have had this feeling lately that things around me are falling apart, but in the end somehow they always turn out for the best. There is a lot that I wish for my family. I want to see them happy, and at peace. Right now that is a little difficult, but I have seen in the past 4 weeks, what it means to be true heroes to some people. My aunt and uncle have been those kids heros, and i want to see and those 2 boys ok and happy. I want to see my parents happy, to be able to look into their eyes and not see pain. I want to see pj and jimmy happy, they have done so much for me, that they deserve everything good that comes to them. I want to see Snef happy. I hope that some day she will meet an amazing man who appreicates her and knows where she has been and where she is going and see how amazing she really is.. A guy that understands and loves her like she deserves.. Most of all I want to see myself happy. I want to be able to look at myself, and know that I am doing all that I can to be happy. Right now, im looking for peace within myself. A lot of tiems it is hard to find, but I will not stop searching until i do find it.. I want to thank my friends who are all helping me on this search. Even if it does mean kicking me in the ass when i NEED it.. I love you all, and never forget that. Whelp, here's to another year phil.. I know you are watching, and I hope that I have become all you have wanted me to be..
since you were here now
and I'll be tryin to heal inside
dedications have all been placed
and I see your resemblance in my face
And on our birthday I'll set an extra wish for you
for you
and I have learned so much since you've been gone
and I have done so little for so long
so now I'll settle up my grievances
and focus on the savory
and wave all these discrepancies away
and I'll peter out these misconceptions
give out faith at my discretion
live a life that you would think was sane
sane
display and changes that they have made
and I wonder if you ever really wanted it this way
and in your memory they even hung a plaque for you
for you
and I have learned so much since you've been gone
and I have done so little for so long
so now I'll settle up these grievances
and focus on the savory
and wave all these discrepancies away
and I'll peter out these misconceptions
give out faith at my discretion
live a life that you would think was sane
sane
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
So, this week hasn't been the easiest one for me, but hey, what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger, or so that is what everyone says.. I really hope that is true. I have had this feeling lately that things around me are falling apart, but in the end somehow they always turn out for the best. There is a lot that I wish for my family. I want to see them happy, and at peace. Right now that is a little difficult, but I have seen in the past 4 weeks, what it means to be true heroes to some people. My aunt and uncle have been those kids heros, and i want to see and those 2 boys ok and happy. I want to see my parents happy, to be able to look into their eyes and not see pain. I want to see pj and jimmy happy, they have done so much for me, that they deserve everything good that comes to them. I want to see Snef happy. I hope that some day she will meet an amazing man who appreicates her and knows where she has been and where she is going and see how amazing she really is.. A guy that understands and loves her like she deserves.. Most of all I want to see myself happy. I want to be able to look at myself, and know that I am doing all that I can to be happy. Right now, im looking for peace within myself. A lot of tiems it is hard to find, but I will not stop searching until i do find it.. I want to thank my friends who are all helping me on this search. Even if it does mean kicking me in the ass when i NEED it.. I love you all, and never forget that. Whelp, here's to another year phil.. I know you are watching, and I hope that I have become all you have wanted me to be..