Get out of my head get out of my life.
Hey children.Dude so yesterday was an adventure.Amanda and I got up and went to buy my pink hair dye.We tried doing the underneath of my hair but it's too dark so it wouldn't show up.So then we decided to do some streaks up top over some blonde ones i already had.It ended up lookin cute except it was only noticable on one side of my head.I don't really care i just think it's funny.So then we got bored and decided to go to the mall..nothing to do there so we went to walmart then stopped at kelly jo's...i was soo happy to see her i haven't seen her in forever and i miss her!And then we went to katy's and amanda had to go home cause she had to babysit her brother today so she couldn't sleep out.We didn't do anything.We met up with Steph and Mike at the park and just bs'ed then came back here and watched movies till we passed out.lots of fun.But yah i'm really starting to get annoyed with this aren thing.Cause i wanna give him this letter but i dont.And like people have good reasons to do it and people have good reasons not to.I think i'm just gonna ask andrea to do it while i'm at the beach and just pray he decides to stop being an ass.What i really want is if i'm not supposed to be with him i want him out of all my damn thought and out of my life.Like seriously..i hate that i can't stop thinking about him and that i see him everywhere and ahh..if i can't have him i want him to disappear.It makes me sick to know i like someone that much and i can't do anything about it.I'm used to getting what i want and this is making me crazy.i probably deserve it for all the shit i put him through but god it still makes me nuts.But moving on to another crazy person.After a whole like year and a half i NEVER dreamed about trevor..who do i freakin have a dream about last night..yah.Kinda weird actually..in the dream i was about to get in the shower and my phone rang..it was still set to his old ring so i knew it was him and i picked it up and was like hey.And he was all like i wanna apologize for the things i've said to you and how i said you didn't mean anything and how i said you didn't matter and all this stuff.I knew it was a dream cause i know trevor would NOT do that.but yah i guess that's all for now..i'm gonna end it here and go do something productive.xoxo