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ahhhhhhhh i need to get this anger out. i hate that little fucking bitch CJ. i don't know what you ever saw in her and why you talked to her for even a month. she is fucking trash. i hate that i was ever nice to her and that i did stuff for her and she could have the nerve to go and take what is mine. YOU ARE MINE. the stories she makes up and saying oh she was your favorite girl meanwhile she didnt even really know you. i remember when i met her and i was reminiscing about things you did and she didnt know them!!! she didnt know about your face swipes and cute sayings you had. she was fucking clueless! why? because she was never really anything to you. i remember so clearly you mentioned her ONCE. ONCE as your friend angela.. meanwhile she knew all about me.. um hello wakeup you fucking dumbass you know about me and i dont know about you because you were insignificant in his life.. that's what i feel like saying. she is an evil nasty bitch. why she would want to hurt me so badly when i did nothing to her is beyond me. and i know you'd tell me to not let that stuff get to me that it's all stupid.. .and i know that believe me i do. but it still hurts. it hurts a lot. she wants to take what we had cus she is jealous and so was that other stupid bitch lauren. girls that i was so nice to. but not anymore CJ if i ever see her out there is a good chance i hit her. i want to so bad. no i wont. because you wouldnt want that. you'd tell me "just ignore her rach who cares what she thinks" i want to not care but it hurts. i wish i could just hear your voice. i need your advice. i need you to talk me thru this. to tell me how to deal with it. i love you. they just dont get it. they never did... never will.