The future looks like Suck.
For all you people who still read lj when it's summer, I commend you. I, alas, don't as often as I should. I've found it's been since Forte's passing that I've even checked this thing. I unfortunately don't have a very positive post this time either.
I've been through a lot emotionally, physically, psychologically, but never really financially. My parents have helped me out for tuition, clothes, food, shelter, car, and pretty much anything (reasonable) that I could want. I obviously didn't get my own condo or million-dollar wedding gown, but I'm ok with that. I like sales, and I like to buy things at reasonable prices. Buying things, though, is something i"ll have to do without for a while. I was looking at how I'm going to live in the future and it looks glim.
I discovered a few things about myself today. Five things I want to do before I die. Those are: work for Disneyland; work at a zoo; be a bartender; finish Sign and become an interpreter; and be a nanny.
I realized, though, that on a financial level those jobs are all not very stable nor do they provide a decent income. That along with Erich's job wouldn't nearly even pay rent.
That gets me depressed because as a kid everyone always tells you that you can become whatever you want to be. Apparantly that's only if you can get a well-paying job, have 10 at once, or still live at home with your parents.
Way depressed about this right now ... the future looks pretty sad right now, and tonight I'm not looking forward to it.