An Infallible Reason Masterpost (Big Bang)
Fandom: Merlin (TV)
Rating: NC-17/E
Word Count: ~35.5k
Category: Gen, Slash; Pairing(s): Merlin/Arthur Pendragon
Characters: Merlin, Arthur Pendragon, Morgana, Uther Pendragon, Gwaine, Freya
Genre: Modern AU, (emotional) hurt/comfort, angst, developing relationship, friendship, song fic
Warnings: rape/non-con (explicit; not Merlin/Arthur; optional reading), rape aftermath and consequences, mentions and discussion of rape, dealing with rape, violence
Disclaimer: Don't own anything, don't make money from this, you know the drill.
Summary: When Arthur hired Merlin as his assistant two years ago, he didn't expect them to become friends. When he sent Merlin home that night, he didn't expect things to change so much. But they did.
{0}: perpetual motion | 0.5: the image won't focus (a blur is all that's seen) | 1: just go on to what you pretend is your life (but please don't die on me) | 2: hold on, slow down (i count the times that i've been sorry, i know, i know) | 3: i know i've been gone for what seems like forever (but i'm here now, waiting) | 4: to convince you that i'm not a ghost or a stranger (but closer than you think) | 5: if there's a time these walls could guard you, then let that time be right now | 6: now my compassion slowly drowns me | {-7}: now i'm standing on the rooftop, ready to fall; i think i'm at the edge now, but i could be wrong | 8: but here in this moment, like the eye of the storm, it all came clear to me | 9: wings won't take me, heights don't phase me, so take a step, but don't look down; take a step | 10: again from the top now and tell me everything | {0} i found a shoulder to lean on, an infallible reason to live all by itself; i took one last look from the heights that i once loved, and then i ran like hell
Also on AO3.
A/N: Okay, so, pay attention everyone xD
I'm not gonna lie, this story was written under severe duress and finished mostly because I felt stupid dropping out so late into the Big Bang, and I am not entirely satisfied with it. Having said that, I'm gonna miss working on it.
Here's a few people without whom this story never, ever would have happened:
Mims, because she is always the one who makes me actually want to finish my fic, because she's the awesomest friend in the world and because I have a bb!Mims on my screen and I am petting her, a huge thank you for beta-ing this so quickly, and a huge thank you for generally helping me live.
Alexa, who is actually my Big Bang author (I'm applied as an artist as well, you should all go check out her story, because, even though that wasn't her job, she supported me through procrastinating, freaking out and eventually posting this.
Sabrina, who played the role of an amazing cheerleader and convinced me not to delete the entire thing several times over.
Aino, whose cheerleader I was, and who stayed with me on Skype for ages.
And here's a few things you need to know about the story itself:
The rape is explicit, however, it happens between Merlin and two unnamed male OCs; you can skip it by not reading section {0} of the story, titled perpetual motion.
The pairing is kind of vague, one-sided through most of the story and not really happening; it faded into the background because I was so focused on the effects of rape. Sorry xD
All titles are taken from the song Ready to Fall by Rise Against, they're just misplaced lyrics; the song itself is awesome and has nothing to do with rape - Idk how I connected it to this fic xD
My artist is M.I.A. so I'm afraid I have nothing to show you. Sorry about that.
And before anyone starts bashing, [mild spoiler alert] you can have an orgasm while being raped, due purely to physical sensations; when this happens, it's especially difficult for the victim to recover, as they start to believe they enjoyed the rape. So no, this is not me fetishizing rape, this a legitimate problem. Get fucking informed.
...I think that's it. I might change my mind later.
Feedback is always appreciated :)
Rating: NC-17/E
Word Count: ~35.5k
Category: Gen, Slash; Pairing(s): Merlin/Arthur Pendragon
Characters: Merlin, Arthur Pendragon, Morgana, Uther Pendragon, Gwaine, Freya
Genre: Modern AU, (emotional) hurt/comfort, angst, developing relationship, friendship, song fic
Warnings: rape/non-con (explicit; not Merlin/Arthur; optional reading), rape aftermath and consequences, mentions and discussion of rape, dealing with rape, violence
Disclaimer: Don't own anything, don't make money from this, you know the drill.
Summary: When Arthur hired Merlin as his assistant two years ago, he didn't expect them to become friends. When he sent Merlin home that night, he didn't expect things to change so much. But they did.
{0}: perpetual motion | 0.5: the image won't focus (a blur is all that's seen) | 1: just go on to what you pretend is your life (but please don't die on me) | 2: hold on, slow down (i count the times that i've been sorry, i know, i know) | 3: i know i've been gone for what seems like forever (but i'm here now, waiting) | 4: to convince you that i'm not a ghost or a stranger (but closer than you think) | 5: if there's a time these walls could guard you, then let that time be right now | 6: now my compassion slowly drowns me | {-7}: now i'm standing on the rooftop, ready to fall; i think i'm at the edge now, but i could be wrong | 8: but here in this moment, like the eye of the storm, it all came clear to me | 9: wings won't take me, heights don't phase me, so take a step, but don't look down; take a step | 10: again from the top now and tell me everything | {0} i found a shoulder to lean on, an infallible reason to live all by itself; i took one last look from the heights that i once loved, and then i ran like hell
Also on AO3.
A/N: Okay, so, pay attention everyone xD
I'm not gonna lie, this story was written under severe duress and finished mostly because I felt stupid dropping out so late into the Big Bang, and I am not entirely satisfied with it. Having said that, I'm gonna miss working on it.
Here's a few people without whom this story never, ever would have happened:
Mims, because she is always the one who makes me actually want to finish my fic, because she's the awesomest friend in the world and because I have a bb!Mims on my screen and I am petting her, a huge thank you for beta-ing this so quickly, and a huge thank you for generally helping me live.
Alexa, who is actually my Big Bang author (I'm applied as an artist as well, you should all go check out her story, because, even though that wasn't her job, she supported me through procrastinating, freaking out and eventually posting this.
Sabrina, who played the role of an amazing cheerleader and convinced me not to delete the entire thing several times over.
Aino, whose cheerleader I was, and who stayed with me on Skype for ages.
And here's a few things you need to know about the story itself:
The rape is explicit, however, it happens between Merlin and two unnamed male OCs; you can skip it by not reading section {0} of the story, titled perpetual motion.
The pairing is kind of vague, one-sided through most of the story and not really happening; it faded into the background because I was so focused on the effects of rape. Sorry xD
All titles are taken from the song Ready to Fall by Rise Against, they're just misplaced lyrics; the song itself is awesome and has nothing to do with rape - Idk how I connected it to this fic xD
My artist is M.I.A. so I'm afraid I have nothing to show you. Sorry about that.
And before anyone starts bashing, [mild spoiler alert] you can have an orgasm while being raped, due purely to physical sensations; when this happens, it's especially difficult for the victim to recover, as they start to believe they enjoyed the rape. So no, this is not me fetishizing rape, this a legitimate problem. Get fucking informed.
...I think that's it. I might change my mind later.
Feedback is always appreciated :)