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So I got my computer up and running, on the internet... woo... I guess...
uh, guess i was expecting a little too much, eh?
*sigh*
i'm dissappointed. i'm just sad and emotional right now I guess. I mean, crap, what was I expecting?
seeing people who you were once so close to, just ignore you and walk away can really crush someone. i wonder if that person knows what kind of effect their actions have on me. who am i kidding? i'm so emotional that everyone's actions effect me. but, man, i really don't know what i was expecting.
i want it to be like it was. i want it to be like it was before i left. i want to go back. i was so happy. i want it back. i want it back.
it's too late. it's always too late for me, have you ever noticed that? i'm so self involved. i'm so self centered. man, i can really loathe myself at times... okay yeah, all the time.
what should i do? what could i do?
been hanging with kaycee at ramon's house. i feel bad 'cause i get so tired so early. i feel old. she's such a positive person, that kaycee-ann. she makes me feel so better. i like to visit her at work, but i always feel in the way. i've always been in the way.
lake tahoe next weekend? doubt it, haven't heard from anyone.
i feel like a different person. i feel like i'm leading two different lives. i don't like it. i really don't like feeling this way. i have a life in humboldt with my friends up there and i have a life here in imperial with my friends here. and i don't know why i'm so ashamed of myself, but i don't want the one life to know about the other. i don't want my humboldt friends to know about my imperial lifestyle and i don't want my imperial friends to know about my humboldt lifestyle. what am i embarrassed of? i fear rejection. man, i am such a child.
there's nothing different! nothing at all!!
but there is...
"come back come back, don't walk away, come back come back come back today. come back come back oh can't you see? come back come back come back to me."
do you know who i am talking about? sweetface, i'm talking about you.
i'm talking about all of you...
ha, who am i kidding... no one reads this anyway
uh, guess i was expecting a little too much, eh?
*sigh*
i'm dissappointed. i'm just sad and emotional right now I guess. I mean, crap, what was I expecting?
seeing people who you were once so close to, just ignore you and walk away can really crush someone. i wonder if that person knows what kind of effect their actions have on me. who am i kidding? i'm so emotional that everyone's actions effect me. but, man, i really don't know what i was expecting.
i want it to be like it was. i want it to be like it was before i left. i want to go back. i was so happy. i want it back. i want it back.
it's too late. it's always too late for me, have you ever noticed that? i'm so self involved. i'm so self centered. man, i can really loathe myself at times... okay yeah, all the time.
what should i do? what could i do?
been hanging with kaycee at ramon's house. i feel bad 'cause i get so tired so early. i feel old. she's such a positive person, that kaycee-ann. she makes me feel so better. i like to visit her at work, but i always feel in the way. i've always been in the way.
lake tahoe next weekend? doubt it, haven't heard from anyone.
i feel like a different person. i feel like i'm leading two different lives. i don't like it. i really don't like feeling this way. i have a life in humboldt with my friends up there and i have a life here in imperial with my friends here. and i don't know why i'm so ashamed of myself, but i don't want the one life to know about the other. i don't want my humboldt friends to know about my imperial lifestyle and i don't want my imperial friends to know about my humboldt lifestyle. what am i embarrassed of? i fear rejection. man, i am such a child.
there's nothing different! nothing at all!!
but there is...
"come back come back, don't walk away, come back come back come back today. come back come back oh can't you see? come back come back come back to me."
do you know who i am talking about? sweetface, i'm talking about you.
i'm talking about all of you...
ha, who am i kidding... no one reads this anyway