Find me In Love with you chapter 17

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Title: Find me in Love with you chp. 17: Sudden Changes
Author: tine_cheese
Rating: NC-17
Length: [11/?] series
Warnings: Yaoi, Sex
Genre: Drama and Romance
Pairings: YunJae, YooSu, JaeSu
Summary: As a host, Yunho was the best in all of Seoul. He was hot, handsome, and experienced. Jaejoong on the other hand was a big businessman who loves to party as much as he loves to make money. Even though Jaejoong always did one night stands, he came back to Yunho again and again and again because truth to be told, he was first first. As days past, the well known host was planned to get married by his parents and Jaejoong soon found out how he loved him. But Jaejoong's business partner, Junsu knows he loves him so. Who would be each other's destiny? Would they break free?


They Meet Again
Making him Forget
2 Years Later
Do you Love me...
Can't Stay Away
In Total Denial
 Second ThoughtsAcceptance, he is in Love
Love Confessions
Love in Bed and Other Places
The More it Shows
Thanking Junsu
Confession, Damnation, Destination
Changmin's Lover Determination is Key

Lunch Dates  





Its been a few weeks since Yunho switched from a host to a waiter and its been going very well. Every time that I'm able to go out for lunch, I'd go to Korean Entree and have lunch with him. I love it! Not just because he's with me but the food as well- what's a good lunch without good food right? It makes me feel so special when women sigh at my direction, whether they're sighing for me or for Yunho it doesn't matter. It still means they're jealous of me, of us and that just makes me feel happy. It means what we have is good, what we have is something other people envy and though I feel a little insecure about women eye candying my baby I feel like I can boast about the love we have and share. Its enough to be the reason of why I live and breath, a little more romantic than I'm use to but its the only way I can explain it.

I don't know...ever since we've gotten over the stage of sex sex sex all the time, we actually got to know each other even more. To the point where at times, we'd be in sync with each other that its scary.

I'd be able to look at him and know what's going on in his head and with one body language, he knows what I'm going to say. Its funny rather than scary most of the time. On second though...its not scary at all, some people might think of it as scary but I think it just shows how we're not like second nature to each other but how we are second nature to one another. Saying like is completely different. I know that now.

"Hyung"

The way he looks me in the eye, its just amazing...it feels like he's looking into my soul and everything that's hidden opens up without my say. Its unbelievable how even now he makes my heart skip beats. To think crushes fade when you've got your crush as your lover. It doesn't. I wonder if he thinks the same way when I look at his brown eyes...and his smile....he's got the cutest smile. I remember when he use to have those cute canine teeth! When he smiled he looked like a cute cat!

"Hyung...you okay?"

Everything about him is just another impact of my growing love for him. I sound so mushy but its true...

Lately, I've been caught daydreaming at work by Junsu...

"Hyung-yah! You better not be daydreaming again"

I blinked and saw Junsu right in front of my face. I jerked back and gulped, "Oh...uh...hi" I smiled nervously.

Junsu sighed, "Daydreaming again, huh?" he knows me so well.

"I finished my work already" I nodded, "Signed and read all of the papers and I've set all the meetings up and stuff" I grinned, "So I'm not doing anything wrong, alright?"

Junsu rolled his eyes, "Even so, its never good to daydream too much- you'll miss out on your own day and just dream about Yunho-ssi. You met him during lunch, didn't you?" Junsu questioned me and crossed his arms, giving me that look he gives me when he has something on me.

I nodded, "Yeah, so what? Didn't you go out with Yoochun the other day?" I smiled, "You guys look cute together...and I'm not jus-- did he see Changmin? Did you tell him anything?" I asked my own set of questions. Junsu looked away from me and I knew in an instant that he didn't tell Yoochun a thing.

"So...he doesn't know that someone came all the way from New York for him, did you know Changmin's been searching for this Park Micky Yoochun for days?" I sighed, "When did you guys start...dating anyways?" I asked him another question.

"The...the night I found out..." Junsu didn't even have to end his sentence. "So you did out of anxiety. You were afraid of losing him, right?" I cut him off from saying anything else, "Like...like how...you lost me....in a way...right?" I sighed again, feeling a bit of guilt on my account for letting Junsu feel that kind of pain when he's my best friend, almost like my own brother.

He nodded gently, "Yeah...but its not like I don't have feelings for him" he looked up at me and looked away again, "I like him...I guess just...when I found out about Changmin's issue it woke me up. He proposed for us to start dating but I said I had to think about it...because of...the thing I had with you..." he sighed.

Suddenly, my office door sung open.

"Sir. We've got a situation" one of the human resources team came in with a feared expression on his face.
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"Jung, Ryuhan. Male. 57. 5'10. 189 lbs. Occupation's mafia leader under his uncle's family: Joon. He's not Yunho's biological father but step-father. Its coincidence that both fathers have the same last name though- they've completely different family background..."

Yunho's real father was Jung, Yunse. He was an all-around type of guy who loved kids and families as much as he loved to work. He inherited his family's business which was a tea shop in Gwangju. We've talked with family members and they all said that Yunho and his father got along very well, they had a really strong father-son relationship. Around Yunho's early teenage years, his real father was diagnosed with cancer, it was found out too late and by the time his father agreed to be sent to the hospital; it spread through out his body.

A year later, he died and Yunho's mother Jung, Jinyi had a hard time for a while. Yunho became a little off edge, his family members say...he started doing poorly in school and he started bringing home plenty of girls. His friends from high school knows him as a the biggest playboy ever. A few years of mourning, Jinyi got over the loss of her husband and they were getting along fine financially and Yunho got a little less reckless. Somewhere along these good changes, Jung, Ryuhan appears in the picture. We've talked with some of Jinyi's friends and they all said good things about Ryuhan but they said that Jinyi started changing a few months after they started dating. They also informed us of how Yunho wasn't fond of him at all, how every single time they'd have a gathering Yunho would always look at him with an intense gaze. They also said that Yunho and Ryuhan never really talked to each other unless necessary.

Yunho went off to college then a year later on; during holidays, he came home for a visit and found out his mother married Ryuhan. One of his aunts said that Yunho and Ryuhan had a fight that very same night and he was thrown out of the house. Yunho ended up staying with a childhood friend for the whole holidays. The next morning, his mother came to visit him and tell him what happened when he was away in Seoul. That he was a mafia leader but he was a sweet gentleman. He killed people but he loves her so much. That he has a temper but he'd never hit her. Yunho couldn't do a thing because his mother was as hard-headed as he was and she specifically told him not to mettle in for she knew what she was doing. But one imporant little detail she didn't tell Yunho was her life was in danger. See, what really happened is the complete opposite.

When Yunho went off to college, Ryuhan proposed to Jinyi but she refused for she thought their pace was going too fast. Ryuhan got ballistic and threw a fit, for the first time in Jinyi's life she was beat up late at night because the guy was smart enough to wait but we asked this young woman who came forward to us. She said that Jinyi was crying, pleading for her life but Ryuhan kept saying that the only way was to marry him. So in the end, Jinyi married him. Some of the residence swore they saw Jinyi try to escape once or twice but was always caught by Ryuhan.

They'd always see him grab Jinyi by the waist and drag her back into their home. Windows and doors would be shut and whatever happened in their home stayed hidden in their home. After a few more attempts, Ryuhan decides to move to Seoul and started moving Jinyi from place to place almost every week...I think. We have little information on this because Jinyi's sister died a few months ago. But we do know that something bad happened within his mafia business which caused more danger for Jinyi's life. We believe that Jinyi's staying at a hotel in Seoul right now and she'll move to another place in a few days. Her friends also said that she was never the type of person to get sick. We asked if they knew where she lived at, they all had no idea where or what her condition was. The last thing they knew about her was that she suddenly became sick, that's why they moved to Seoul.

"We were going to find more information on Ryuhan's mafia buzz so we sent in two of our men....and here's the bad part" the head of the human resources team paused, "Eunhyuk and Kangin are held captive" he somehow manged to put a smile of his face.

"Now what?" I questioned, "How are we going to get them back, Heechul? Are they wanting for ransom or something?" I questioned, trying to sink in all of the information that has just been given.

"They just sent us an e-mail this morning" Heechul replied and walked towards his laptop and typed, pressed some buttons then turned it around for me to see.

I know you don't want anything bad happening so just drop this now. Don't see Yunho anymore because he's got a fiancee and you're a man as well. I'm pretty sure your image would be a little hurt if the public knows one of its CEO is interested in men. I'll let your men go if you let Yunho go. I'll give you a day to break up with him and get things over, if you do this correctly I will let your men go in the morning. I'll pretend nothing even happened.

Good day.

Then I heard running footsteps coming and as if it was automatic or possibly out of coincidence, Yunho comes in running to the human resources room panting like a dog. His eyes were looking everywhere and when he finally found me sitting behind the table, he quickly walked towards me and kissed me right in front of all those people.

Well. It wasn't like I didn't want him to ever kiss me in public-- it was just too sudden? I swear I heard a gasp once Yunho's lips touched with mine. Along with that surprise, as our lovely kiss continued his arms wrapped around my waist and somehow I stood up for that was the only way Yunho's warmth would have reached my body.

In the midst of that unexpected, romantic kiss I heard clearing of the throat.

Heechul just had to ruin it.

"We have men in danger" he spoke in syllables as if he was trying to get through a retard.

I tried breaking our kiss, I really did but Yunho was just so into it that we stopped only to the peak of us suffocating, leaving us breathless, panting. He looked at me with eyes with mixed emotions. I didn't know how he was feeling or what he was going to say or do.

I turned my head to Heechul and gulped, "This is Yunho" he turned to everyone with a tint of rosy color in my cheeks, "Yunho" I sighed, "Is my lover" I showed an artificial smile upon my face. I wasn't telling a lie, he is my lover. I was just embarrassed and didn't know what to do other than smile. It even surprises me that I was able to talk right after that kiss, honestly, there are such things are speechless kisses...if they were ever thought of as a myth.

Junsu had a smile on as he crossed his arms across his chest, "Hi, Yunho-ssi" he greeted Yunho with a small wave. Yunho smiled back and looked back at me, "I need you to come with me" he whispered. I replied with a nod, taking Yunho's hand in mine and pulled him for us to go. I bit my lower lip and sighed, I know I have things to worry about other than Yunho but ever since I've expressed my feelings for him I promised myself he is and will be my first priority no matter what.

Its not work anymore.

Its not money.

Its not family.

Its not friends.

If it even comes to the world, Yunho would still come first because he is my world.

"We'll discuss everything tomorrow" was the last thing I said before exiting the human resources room with people worrying about two men in danger while I was worrying about Yunho and our relationship. Aren't I selfish?

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Yunho held onto my hand tightly as we walked out of the office building. We decided we were going to take his car since he brought it with him, I guess I'll just have to leave my car here and pick it up tomorrow or something.

The ride to Yunho's apartment was quiet. The radio weren't really much of assistance, it didn't at all cover up the sighs and little noises Yunho was making. I could sense something else was happening. I knew something definitely was happening when he took my hand and kissed it. His eyes were still on the road but his intentions were really not focused on driving, its like he couldn't wait.

He kissed the back of my hand and I could feel his warm breath on my skin, he kissed it again and sighed. "Jaejoong-ah?" he asked for my attention. It took me a second to reply, I was in deep thought of him as I was looking at him. "Yunho-yah" I replied with a smile.

"Jaejoong, I love you" I could see his was biting his lower lip, was it because of doubt? Was it because of fear?

All I could do was smile and take our intertwined hands to my cheek as I closed my eyes and felt the back of Yunho's hand gently brush against my face.

"I love you too, Yunho"




Humming to Junsu's work place, I had a bright smile across my face. I was feeling very well today not just because I finished writing two songs and also sold it to an entertainment, this evening I will be taking Junsu out for a date.

Romantic, right?

I know. I'm deciding on taking him to a very fancy restaurant then we'll go home and drink a bottle of wine with a good old romantic flick. Thinking about my plan just gives me the goosebumps- how good am I? Oh and after dinner...I'll hold his hand while we walk to the car and maybe there will be a chance of a make-out session to take place...I should bring some mints just in case I order onions or something and maybe I should've stopped by a 7 eleven to get a pack of condoms. I sighed and shrugged, walking through the automatic doors of K&J company. I flash a smile just in case I was about to run into someone big or important.

If that big and important person just happened to talk to me, I'd have to make a big good impression and say, "Oh yeah," I'd chuckle, "One of the CEO of this great company's my boyfriend". I would finish that killer sentence with my great smile.

Hmm...

Since Korea isn't really open to homosexuals, let alone gay people...I think that sentence will get me in a lot of trouble. I nodded to myself and made a note if someone bumped with me, I wouldn't say that Junsu was my boyfriend. I'd just say he's my friend, a really close friend that we really don't mind calling each other boyfriends. Nah.

I sighed and looked forward, walking with a pace that was getting me into a smooth path though there were a quite amount of people walking pass by me.

I wonder what Junsu's wearing today. I smiled to myself, I love it when he wears jeans that just shapes out his round ass. Its so sexy it honestly, can give me a boner just by staring at it. I wonder what cologne he's wearing today, I noticed that he wears different smells each day I meet him. One day he smelt like vanilla. The next day he smelt like cool rain mist. The the next day, to throw me off because honestly I thought he was going to smell like forest or pine or something- he wears a strawberry scented cologne. I don't know where he gets them or how he decides which smell to wear. Nevertheless, when I inhale his aura it always brings me to a good if not, better mood. That's what I love about my Junsu-

"Oh! I- I'm sorry!" my shut eyes opened to a tall, familiar figure. I had to blink twice to make sure my vision wasn't fooling with me. I can't believe it's actually him.

He formed a smile on his face, "Is it...really you?!" his face brightened up, "Micky Park Yoochun?" he laughed out and hugged me. I didn't know how to react to my ex-lover...or....boyfriend? No...he was my boss first. So, he's my ex-boss/lover/boyfriend but really lover and boyfriend are the same but slightly different. I don't know how to explain it.

He held me in his arms so tightly and I was just there, standing. Taking it all in.

When was the last time I met with this guy? I found myself thinking about that question. Why does he act like its such a bliss to see me? Why is he so....happy?

"Max...I-" he suddenly kissed me. I gasped and jerked away, furious by his actions. I eyed him with a glare, I never honestly do these kinds of things.

"What the hell, Max?! What are you doing?" the last thing I wanted to do was make a scene but this guy. This ex-boss/lover/boyfriend that was mine just kissed me out of nowhere when I've got a hawt, sexy current lover/boyfriend waiting for my arrival! Dammit!

His smile turned down a little and his left hand reached for me, I backed away, "Stop. Don't touch me" I glared at him and turned around, going to the direction of Junsu's office. Once I turned I saw some heads turn at me, probably for that uncalled for kiss or that sudden out burst. Now when someone bumps into me, I'll just shut my mouth.

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Changmin smirked and brushed his lips that was just touched by Yoochun a few moments ago. "Fiesty as I left him" he smiled and sighed, "I wonder why he's all worked up now" he shrugged and walked out of the building. Taking his phone out, he dialed his assistant, "MJ" he smiled.

"Boss?" the assistant replied.

"I found him" he was sure.

"Great! We will plan a romantic dinner right away!" a giggle at the end of the sentence.

Changmin smiled at the thought of having Yoochun in his arms again, "Thanks, MJ"

"No problem boss~" the girl replied.




I was thinking to myself that this could go out in two different ways. One way would be calm, in control, and basically we'd just talk about it. The second way, which I honestly favor is hot, out of control and basically we'd have sex while we talk about it.

Its been a habit we've gotten ever since we've started this whole sex partner/ host and client relationship. We'd just have the pleasure of sex while we moan and groan about our lives. Sometimes when the sentences are too long, it would be a bit of a turn of but nevertheless, it was ver stimulating when Jaejoong would try and say something and say another, distracted by the touches I give him. Its that sort of thing that makes me feel special. That he's all mine.

"Nghh...ah...Yun-yunho" he gulped and bit his lower lip, god how beautiful this sight is. I leaned for his lips and closed my eyes, feeling his plump lips touch with mine was amazing. He opened his mouth and his tongue invited me to enter his and both his hands were on the sides of my head, caressing ever so gently as I thrust in and out the way he liked it.

My hands traveled down to his well-built abdomen, feeling his muscles in the process of finding his belly ring. I tug on in with a teasing purpose and received a groan and a small jerk from his whole body, his hole twitched. I broke our kiss and moved down to his jaw line, sucking his soft skin then moved down to his birth mark. He cocked his head up and moaned out my name, giving my spine something to tingle about.

He gulped, "So- ungh" his hand found mine and beat me to my destination. He wanted to touch himself as much as I wanted to touch him a well, I smiled and chuckled, "Yah, I touch you feel" I spoke out and cupped his erection. His moans to the sudden touch, "Mngh...ah...Yunho- fuck me already" he gulped, a sense of want was in his voice. "Why in a rush, babe? We've got all the time in the world" I cooed and kissed his chest.

He shook his head and shut his eyes as I started stroking his harden members, "No?" I asked him. He shook his head again and gulped, "We've got only a day" he bit his lower lip and his pre-cum leaked out. I blinked and kissed him with much passion and made sure my thrusts were in order with my strokes, I wanted him to feel so much pleasure at one time. I wanted him to feel like he was in heaven. I wanted him to feel like everything will be okay.

I kissed him with my eyes open, seeing his eyes closed but this eyes move about and his expression of pleasure was such a sight, so handsome and captivating. Breathtaking. When his mouth opened for a moan, it was sweet music to my ears.

With a few more thrusts, we reached our climax. Causing both our bodies to feel such intense tingle, unexpressable sensation through out our connected bodies. Jaejoong moaned my name again and it was enough to make me do it again and so I did.

Even after I spilled inside him and his cum was all over his lower stomach and my hand, I kept going with my thrusts and strokes. He moaned out for them so freely and looked down at me, "Yunho-ah" he breathed, "Wha-ngha...ha...why are you-" he closed one eyes and gulped, "we- we came" he had a simple smile on his face. I smiled back and kissed him, "We've only got a day" I whispered, "but it won't be our last" I nodded and kissed him again, "I want you to remember me" I kissed him again and again.

"Why would I forget you?" he questioned and leaned to my chest, his lips touched my erected nipple and he started sucking on it like a baby wanting milk. Damn it felt so good that it affected my pace, my thrusts to Jaejoong's tight hole went faster and my gentle strokes to his once awakened cock went faster as well.

"Just in case you find someone else...while I'm away"

He stopped and laid down on the bed, "Fuck me. Make me cum right now" his voice was stern and his arms wrapped around my neck and he sat up, making me sit straighter.

Then he started moving at his own pace, he's riding me now. Making up and down movements instead of in and out or rather left and right. I groaned, "Jaejoong-ah".

He hugged me and I felt his mouth breathing hot air near my ear, he licked my ear lobe and with a swift move, his right hand was playing with my left nipple. Making me moan without my consent. "I wanna talk about this without speech malfunction" he whispered and fastened his movements. My strokes were a little behind but nevertheless, he got me out of control and I lost it.

Spilling my seeds inside of him once more and after myself, he came as well. Leaving both of us breathless instead of just panting like the usual because, usually we take breaks between rounds. I just couldn't wait today.

He dared to move again, a smile appeared on his face. "Yunho-ah" he kissed me, his arms tightening around me, "I love you" he nodded with his bright smile. I kissed him back and caressed his thighs, "I love you too" I hugged him tightly, "So so so so much" I sighed. I withdrew myself from him without break our hug which made him shudder and moan a little, "That was really, really good" he commented on our session, no our love making. Making me smile, "I love you" I replied and leaned to the bed, crushing him with my body.

Jaejoong yelped in laughter, "Yah! Get off me!" he shouted playfully and moved to my left. I laid down on my back and he turned to his stomach, his elbows planted on the matress, his connected fingers were his chin's support. I gave him a gentle smile and caressed his cheek, "I love you" I repeated again, I just really do.

He chuckled, "I love you too Yunho" he sighed, "Now...about today" he sighed again and his legs dangled up, crossing with each other, "Your...stepdad- well it was really my fault" he started. "See...when I met your mom weeks ago I was really concerned so I did a little research- well rather my HR team did the research and they wanted to know more so they sent out two of my men...and...well, he caught them" he sighed and looked away, biting his lower lip in the process, "He sent me an e-mail. Saying that...you've got someone already and that you're getting married and how I'm a man and you're a man. How its going to be bad if he tells the media about me being gay" he sighed and looked into my eyes again, "then...he said....that everything would go back to normal..." his eyes were getting teary.

"If I break up with you" a tear dropped from his right eye then a bitter smile, as if he was trying to see the good in this. "Its funny how...in telemovies these things always happen, huh?" he wiped his tear and sighed, his nose was getting pink and his tears wouldn't stop. "He said I have a day to do that...and if everything goes well, he'll give my men back and things will be as if nothing happened" he nodded and gulped. Pausing for a moment, he sighed and looked elsewhere then looked at me and reached his hand out to my cheek.

"I've been selfish all my life, Yunho" he blinked, "I don't want to break up with you just because of a threat...do you feel the same about it?" he crooked his head to the left, "beacuse I love you and I don't want to ever be apart from you" he brushed my cheek with his thumb.

"But...Jaejoong-ah...your company and everything else in your life will in jeopardize. I can't let that happen" I replied, "I...I have a plan" I nodded, "For both of us but...it'll take us some time...to..."

Jaejoong shook his head, "No...I don't want you to go" he hugged me and his tears fell on my chest, "I'm never letting you go, Yunho. I love you and I need you" he cried in my arms. I hugged him, laying kisses on his head, "Its okay" I whispered. He shook his head, "No. Its not okay if you're going to leave me. I know how these things work out, Yunho. We need to stick together, no matter what the cost is" he nodded in my embrace, "if we separate...who knows what'll happen?"

I knew what he was talking about but I had faith in us. I know we'd never do anything to hurt one another. I know it. In the back of my mind, my mother always lingered. I have to save her. I want to save her as much as I want to love Jaejoong...maybe a little less but its almost the same importance in my life.

"Jaejoong-ah...its only going to be a couple of months...I promise it won't take even half a year- I need to get my mom and this is the only way I can get to her and make sure that she'll be coming home with me" I nodded and looked at Jaejoong, "I promise you I'll come back and we'll live happily ever after" I smiled.

"But...what about your dad? Your step-dad?" he questioned.

"I have a plan to get rid of him. I'll go with everything he asks for and when I've got my mom, I'll escape and I'll call the cops in the process" it was more complex than that but its a brief description. He nodded, "Are you sure it'll work?" he asked another.

I nodded and kissed him, holding his hand in mine and intertwining them together.

"Positive" I gave him another kiss.

"Won't he ask you to marry that girl?" Jaejoong's eyebrows were in a knot and his plump lips were sticking out.

"This morning, we talked about everything. He also propsed that 'just do everything I say and things will be normal again' plan to me. He said that if I go with him, he won't. He said that it was just a scare. Besides...he killed her" I looked away for a second and sighed, " He said we just had to go abroad for some business matters and I was needed there because my mother was going to get treated there as well- I don't do any mafia business, Jaejoong-ah" I shook my head and sighed, "He respects me enough to let me do what I want just as long as he gets what he wants" I explained.

Jaejoong sighed, "Even though...Let's get married now" he nodded, a bright light was in his eyes.

"Get married? Right now?" I asked.

Jaejoong nodded with a smile, "Yeah" he leaned and kissed me.

"We'll go to Paris right now and get married there then we'll come back and ....I can let you go with peace in mind" his plan sounded to good to be real, I want to get married to him! I smiled and laughed, "Really? We can?" I grabbed his body and placed him on top of me, hugging him ever so tightly, "We can get married in Paris?"

Jaejoong laughed in my ears, "Yeah. It'll be 10 hours flight...and our day will start at midnight so...I'll call all the phone calls that needs to be done get married then come back and have maybe like...two hours until then" he calculated in his mind and kissed my neck, "Now let go of me so I can get us plane tickets and reservations for a priest" he ordered and I obeyed with no subject. Heck, I'm getting married to Kim Jaejoong! The love of my life! The apple in my eye! The very soul of myself. My everything! My whole intire world! WHOO-HOO!




God. I needed more time. I just needed maybe another day?

We had a great, romantic dinner. He was such a gentleman and I felt like a girl in high school being swoon by her play boy boyfriend. After that perfect dinner, we held hands and made out. Then we went to Yoochun's apartment. We were talking and now this.

"Junsu-ah, answer me" Yoochun shook my hand a little, he leaned towards me and his other hand cupped my chin, forcing my gaze at him. "Answer my question please" he replied, "Why did you change your mind about dating me?"

I sighed and looked at him with teary eyes, I couldn't hold it back anymore. I sniffed and I could feel the sting in my nostrils, it was coming.

My lips were trembling, "Because I thought I was going to lose you..." a tear rolled down my cheek, "...like...how I lost Jaejoong to Yunho..." my tears were flowing non-stop by the end of my setence, my reason. He looked at me and held my face in his hands, wiping my tears with his thumbs, "Junsu-ah" he looked so concerned. He hugged me, "You're not lossing me to anyone, baby" he sighed and kissed my head, "I love you and that doesn't change at all"

I sniffed and suddenly, my phone rang. Yoochun let go of his grasp and I reached for my cell in my pocket.

"Hello?" I answered, "hyung?" It was Jaejoong.

"Junsu-ah, Yunho and I are going to Paris- we're getting married" I could sense a smile on his face.

"Really?" I couldn't help but smile too. I was happy for him.

"Yeah, we'll be leaving in thirty minutes- we're already in the airport. I just wanted to call and tell you that I'll be out tomorrow. Send my apologies to HR, kay? I just...my prioties are important to me" he sighed. I nodded, "Okay, hyung. Have fun, okay? And congrats" I chuckled.

"Thanks, Su!" Jaejoong laughed back and I could hear Yunho-ssi asking Jaejoong if I was laughing my butt off due to happiness. Yoochun looked at me with curiousity of who was in the other line.

"Bye, have fun and be safe!" I replied and ended the phone call, putting the device inside my pocket again. "Who was it?" Yoochun asked. "Jaejoong hyung. They're going to Paris- they're getting married!" I grinned. Yoochun widened his eyes, "Jae-jaejoong and Yunho?! Seriously?" a smile formed on his face. I nodded, "Yeah!" I laughed, "They're going to Paris right now"

Yoochun chuckled, "Wah...they're going on the fast lane"

And there goes my gut.

"Yoochun-ah" it amazes me how the atmposhere can change just like that. "Hmm?" Yoochun answered me, looking into my eyes. "I..." I squinted my eyes a little and gulped, "I...I'd like to...I want...I want us to..."

"You want us to get married too?" he had a smile on his face.

I smiled back and shook my head, "No..." I bit my lower lip, losing that smile.

"I want us to take a break...from each other..." I sighed and gulped.

"What?" Yoochun replied, his expression was so confused.

I sighed, "I just need to think. I mean- I'm a really sensitive person and I just need to think things through before I dive in- you know?" I sighed again and looked down, I found myself playing with my fingers. "Honestly...sometimes..." I gulped that clump of saliva, "I know I like you. I know I want to be with you but sometimes I don't think its for the right reasons, Yoochun-ah" I tried my best in explaining my situation.

"I...I don't know whether I said yes to you because of my own will. Because of the fact that I like you and that you attract me or because of the fact that I knew someone else wanted you and I was just feeling scared of becoming the loser again" I inhaled and looked at Yoochun, surprised to see him with a calm expression, "Yoochun-ah" I licked my dry lips and bit my lower lip, "I just want to think for a little while" I repeated what I wanted from him.

He nodded, "Alright. A break" he shrugged, "I can work with that" I could tell it was by force, I could see the sadness in his eyes. He stepped forward and held my hand, "One condition" he held out his idex finger and looked at me. I nodded, letting him know I understood.

"No dating other people- no kissing other people. No touching other people. And no having sex with other people" he nodded, "That's actually more than one condition...but you get what I mean, right?" he smiled. I nodded, "Yes" I replied, "Thanks, Yoochun-ah" I hugged him and sighed, "I really appreciate you understanding me" I kissed him on the cheek. He grinned, "And since we're right in front of my door, you sleep with me" he chuckled.

I smirked and sighed, I give in.

"Fine- our break starts tomorrow then" I sighed and felt his arm around my waist.

"Alright, tomorrow then"





Everything went so fast.

Jaejoong and I were just in my bedroom and now were in a hotel in Paris. I'm looking at myself in a black suit and in another room, Jaejoong was getting ready as well.

We were getting married.

Even though no one was to witness it but the priest, Jaejoong and I. I still felt blessed with everything that's good about the world and beyond. I felt that everything was going in the right direction. I sighed and puffed my cheeks with air, checking any faults with my image. I need to look perfect for my future husband. I want to make him proud. I smile at myself and sighed, "Jaejoong-ah..." I gulped, how should I greet him?

"You look stunning" I tried to make my best smile ever. Fail.

"Jaejoong-ah..wow...you look great!" I sighed and frowned.

"Damn! Jaejoongie! You looking fucking hawt!" I blinked at himself and shook my head in shame. How the hell was I suppose to meet him now?

I bit my lower lip and sighed, "You can do this Jung. You can do this" I nodded to myself and repeated the same sentence, hoping it'll get me through this life changing situation.





I smiled and sighed, checking any flaws on my suit. I found none. I focused on my expression now. Should I look happy? Or maybe...romantic? How do you look romantic? Err...maybe gentle? Brides look gentle right?

No. I'm a guy! How do Grooms look like? They look...proud!

I nodded to myself and pulled the suit forward, making sure it was on the right way. Fixing my tie and flashed myself a small smile. "White does compliment my skin" I chuckled and sighed, "Oh! I'm getting married to Yunho!" I couldn't help but squeal.

I'm actually going to me Kim Jung Jaejoong I smiled bigger this time, "I'll be his other offical half!" I giggled.

Nothing will go wrong now.

I took another minute to make sure I looked alright. Then I heard a knock on the door, "Jaejoong-ah?" it was Yunho. I glanced at the door, "Yes, Yunho?" I shouted.

"You ready?" he asked.

I nodded and walked towards the door, "Yeah!" I answered and turned the doorknob, pulling it forward.

I was in awe.

I smiled when I saw Yunho standing there with his hands in his pockets ever so casually, his suit was perfect! I chuckled, "Waah...whose this handsome looking hottie?" I smirked as I walked towards him, wrapping my arms around him to give him a kiss.

He smiled back, "Whose this breathtaking angel?" he whispered, sending tingles down my back and my heart just stopped. I smiled, biting my nipped on my lower lip.

"You ready, baby?" he questioned, our foreheads touching.

I nodded, "Uh-huh"

I've never been so ready in my life.





We were outside next to a beautiful fountain with strangers, foreigners as our guests. I really didn't mind since Jaejoong had this beautiful smile on his face. Heck, at least we've got visitors.

The sun was brightly shining down on us, it wasn't too hot nor too cold. It was the perfect day to get wedding outside. Thank you, God.

The priest was Korean too. How lucky we are to find one at such short notice. He sighed, pushing his glasses up the bride of his nose as he looked into the book of God.

"Jung Yunho, Wilt thou have Kim Jaejoong to thy wedded spouse, to live together after God's ordinance, joined in holy estate? Wilt thou love him, comfort him, honor, and keep him in sickness and in health; and, forsaking all others, keep thee only unto him, so long as ye both shall live?"

I turned to Jaejoong and nodded, "I will" I answered proudly, reciving some claps from our audience. Jaejoong chuckled a little.

The priest turned to him, "Kim Jaejoong, Wilt thou have Jung Yunho to thy wedded spouse, to live together after God's ordinance, joined in holy estate? Wilt thou love him, comfort him, honor, and keep him in sickness and in health; and, forsaking all others, keep thee only unto him, so long as ye both shall live?"

Jaejoong nodded, a smile on his face. "I will" he answered and the crowd clapped again.

The priest gave us a smile before continueing, "Since you've come alone, we will skip the giving of the candidates and move on" he nodded, "Now, the candidates will vow to each other" he nodded for me to start.

I turned to Jaejoong and he turned to me. I sighed and gave a nervous chuckle before starting. I looked into his eyes and cleared my throat, "I, Jung Yunho, take thee, Kim Jaejoong, to my wedded lover, spouse, companion, my everything to have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death us do part, according to God's holy ordinance; and there to I give and plight thee my troth." I sighed and got the memorised part done, this was my own words.

I licked my lips and gulped, "I, Jung Yunho will promise to always have Kim Jaejoong as my first priority. No matter what happens he'll be the first thing in mind. Because he's my soul, he's my love, he's my everything." I sighed, "I know that there are going to be difficult tides ahead of us and I promise you that I will never let go" I gulped, "I promise to be your bolder when things get rough, I'll be your shoulder when you want to cry, I'll be your friend when you need someone to talk to, I'll be your lover forever" I smiled and had tears in my eyes. It felt so good to say those words out loud.

I didn't care if our audience didn't understand a word I said. As long as Jaejoong heard them.

He sighed and smiled back, "I, Kim Jaejoong, take thee, Jung Yunho, to my wedded lover, partner, spouse, companion, friend, my soul to have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death us do part, according to God's holy ordinance; and thereto I give and plight thee my troth." he sighed and gave me another smile, "I, Kim Jaejoong promise to take care of Jung Yunho. I promise to love him endlessly and forgive with a kind heart. I promise that he'll be and always be my first priority. No matter what the future hold for us, I promise to stick around and hold on to our love. I will promise to stay strong when you're lacking of it, I promise to stay confident when you're feeling with unease, I promise to stay faithful to you and only you" he smiled in such a way that made my heart explode inside my rib cage.

The audience clapped another round of aplause.

The priest then moved on, "Bless, O Lord, these Rings, that he who gives it and he who wears it may abide in thy peace, and continue in thy favor, unto their life's end; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen." a little boy went forward with our rings on a white pillow.

Jaejoong smiled at the sight.

I took Jaejoong's left hand and looked into his eyes once more, "With this Ring I thee wed: In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen." Then I took the ring laying on the pillow and slid the ring on Jaejoong's forth finger.

Jaejoong chuckled a little, he was so nervous I could sense it and because his fingers were trembling. I smiled at that. How he was so cute.

Jaejoong smiled at me and said, "With this Ring I thee wed: In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen." He took the other ring from the pillow and took my hand, placing it on my forth finger too.

Once again, all those tourists clapped their hands for us.

The priest had a big smile on his face, "You may now seal the promises you have made with each other with a kiss." he nodded.

Jaejoong smiled and took my hands, taking a step forwards we kissed in front of all those people.

We're married now.

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XD my brain cells are dead. It took me FOREVER to write this. XDD I was just sooooo worried about everything! Thinking things through. What happens if this happens?! and all that. *sighs* anyways...i hope you like it. :] please comment!! it really helps me.
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wedding vows/speeches to: http://www.gaychristianonline.org/samesexmarriageceremony.html#PRO
icons: made by moi. :] i swear i didn't steal them if they look familiar. I was going to post a batch of YunJae...mostly Jae but....there's just so much icons already made out of the AADBSK3....T>T

anyways! happy readings!!!

muah! XD

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