Oct 30, 2013 07:41
Everything seems all right but I feel like I'm just an inch from the edge, hanging by a thread, like one caressing whisper of wind and I'll topple over and fall from the cliff and into a raging sea. I know I'm mentally strong (well, strong enough that I'm still mostly myself)-even though my emotional state is nothing but-but I feel like I'm reaching my breaking point. IDEK why or how this came about but it's lurking about.
I have a fresh scar. It's as light as the others because I'm such a coward; however high my tolerance for pain is, I'm scared of hurting myself.
I'll sit on my decision for a fortnight but if I still feel the same stagnation in XPuri, I'll drop from all games, and the internet / RP world even.
Le sigh.
blair: feels,
idek,
eyes only