lovelife...or the lack of it
I met up with an old friend of mine two days ago. Since we haven't seen each other in ages, we talked non stop about how we've been. and it seems that no update about your life is complete without you spilling about uhm, the affairs of the heart, my friend went on and on talking bout his lovelife. bout girl A, B, C, D... after about an eternity, it was my turn to dish.So, i told him about my lovelife, or the lack of it...
my friend aka the casanova: "Ano? wala ka paring boyfriend?"
me: "yep."
casanova: "you're not so hideous looking, you know."
me: (w/ a raised left eyebrow)"and....how is that relevant to our conversation?"
casanova: "well, you know, it shouldn't take you that long to get one. Look at me, got myself a girlfriend in two weeks."
me: "how many girlfriends have you had?"
casanova: "seven...plus a couple others on the side.you know, yung wala-wala lang.."
me: "and how long did they last?"
casanova: "umm... 1-2 months?"
me: "do you even like them at all?"
casanova: "well..."
So yeah. Our conversation went stupid fast, so we just moved on to another subject.
But what i don't get is how we're supposed to not stay single. I mean, why not? You get to have the freedom to do whatever you want, whenever you want, however you want.
I know that it feels better when you have that special someone to share those moments with. The thing is, i haven't found my special someone yet. I'm not the type who sees someone and gets head over heals in love. That explains why i don't even have a crush. (now, that's sad..)I have to spend a lot of time with someone, get to know him..before i can have a crush. The problem is, I don't get the chance to really hangout or "bond" with someone. I don't get to discover something cool about a guy and say, "hey,that's pretty neat. I'd love to know more about this person."
You see, i'm easily bored. I like to be doing a lot of things (but i also love bumming around. i know, i know, i'm weird). I like to try new things.
I might not have a lot of time to go out for movies, because i'd rather go to Payatas on saturdays to play with the kids there. Or i might not be able to have lunch or hangout with my guy during breaks because i have to man a booth for an event, or go to boracay or palawan with my man during summer because i have to be in school for ANI (wonderful project, i swear.)But it doesn't mean that the guy i'll be with would be on the shelf gathering dust or something. I know that i have to make him feel special, to show him i love him (i have my ways. ;P)It takes a certain kind of a man to understand these things, and who would want me,despite my 1001 activities. I don't want to be with someone who needs me. (he'll be jealous, demanding,suffucating..fast)or worse, just because he wants a girlfriend.
I want someone who wants to be with me. To do things with me, discover things with me. I want someone who would praise me for something i did well, and who will challenge and motivate me to do better, Because he believes that i can.I want someone who will tell me that i screwed up if i did something wrong, and will help me fix and learn from it. I want someone who wouldn't mind being without his significant other for a while so we could do our own thing, and when we're together, we'll tell each other about it, and it'll be ok. No fuss, no fights.
And besides, i might be too weird for most guys. There are days when i like to dress up, but most of the time, I'm perfectly happy in tees and shorts. I'm a party girl who likes staying at home. I'm a picky eater who eats anything. I'm health conscious but can't go on a diet and eats ice cream by the gallon. (fine.half a gallon.)And i want to be a nerd! hahaha, for my own sake,i shouldn't be posting this, right? :P
I'll be honest. I do miss getting all kilig. But i want more than that.
But i'm not hopeless. I know he's there...probably hiding from me.
***wala lang: I WANT MY OWN BISHIBASHI!!!yung english version ha. :)***
my friend aka the casanova: "Ano? wala ka paring boyfriend?"
me: "yep."
casanova: "you're not so hideous looking, you know."
me: (w/ a raised left eyebrow)"and....how is that relevant to our conversation?"
casanova: "well, you know, it shouldn't take you that long to get one. Look at me, got myself a girlfriend in two weeks."
me: "how many girlfriends have you had?"
casanova: "seven...plus a couple others on the side.you know, yung wala-wala lang.."
me: "and how long did they last?"
casanova: "umm... 1-2 months?"
me: "do you even like them at all?"
casanova: "well..."
So yeah. Our conversation went stupid fast, so we just moved on to another subject.
But what i don't get is how we're supposed to not stay single. I mean, why not? You get to have the freedom to do whatever you want, whenever you want, however you want.
I know that it feels better when you have that special someone to share those moments with. The thing is, i haven't found my special someone yet. I'm not the type who sees someone and gets head over heals in love. That explains why i don't even have a crush. (now, that's sad..)I have to spend a lot of time with someone, get to know him..before i can have a crush. The problem is, I don't get the chance to really hangout or "bond" with someone. I don't get to discover something cool about a guy and say, "hey,that's pretty neat. I'd love to know more about this person."
You see, i'm easily bored. I like to be doing a lot of things (but i also love bumming around. i know, i know, i'm weird). I like to try new things.
I might not have a lot of time to go out for movies, because i'd rather go to Payatas on saturdays to play with the kids there. Or i might not be able to have lunch or hangout with my guy during breaks because i have to man a booth for an event, or go to boracay or palawan with my man during summer because i have to be in school for ANI (wonderful project, i swear.)But it doesn't mean that the guy i'll be with would be on the shelf gathering dust or something. I know that i have to make him feel special, to show him i love him (i have my ways. ;P)It takes a certain kind of a man to understand these things, and who would want me,despite my 1001 activities. I don't want to be with someone who needs me. (he'll be jealous, demanding,suffucating..fast)or worse, just because he wants a girlfriend.
I want someone who wants to be with me. To do things with me, discover things with me. I want someone who would praise me for something i did well, and who will challenge and motivate me to do better, Because he believes that i can.I want someone who will tell me that i screwed up if i did something wrong, and will help me fix and learn from it. I want someone who wouldn't mind being without his significant other for a while so we could do our own thing, and when we're together, we'll tell each other about it, and it'll be ok. No fuss, no fights.
And besides, i might be too weird for most guys. There are days when i like to dress up, but most of the time, I'm perfectly happy in tees and shorts. I'm a party girl who likes staying at home. I'm a picky eater who eats anything. I'm health conscious but can't go on a diet and eats ice cream by the gallon. (fine.half a gallon.)And i want to be a nerd! hahaha, for my own sake,i shouldn't be posting this, right? :P
I'll be honest. I do miss getting all kilig. But i want more than that.
But i'm not hopeless. I know he's there...probably hiding from me.
***wala lang: I WANT MY OWN BISHIBASHI!!!yung english version ha. :)***