Open Your Heart Like You Have Opened Your Eyes
To look in the mirror and believe that what you see is a reflection of your true self is the greatest misconception in the world. A mirror only shows the lies and masks we tell and wear in order to get us through each day. Rather it is our actions and words that are the true indication of the person we have become.
It is so easy to lie. To believe that you are not something or someone that you really are. But why do we lie to other people and why do we lie to ourselves? Is it because it's fun or is it because the truth is a very scary thing? Lately, I have been lying to myself because the truth is something that I did not want to believe.
People around me have mentioned that I have an attitude, am full of myself, or am abrasive. Most of the time I have brushed it off and told myself they were wrong, that I am one of the most level headed person. Looking at myself now, that simply isn't true.
I'm not really sure what to say or what to conclude because it is a bizarre feeling. I promised myself that I would never lose my modesty and sincerity. Somewhere along the way I have lost a lot of that and probably too much of it. I think one of the reasons that has happened is that nothing really spectacular has happened to me lately. Sure things have not been bad but I haven't had a moment where I knew everything was going to be okay or witnessed something that was truly inspiring. As a result I've developed this chip on my shoulder and began trying to protect myself.
When you become suspicious of people and feel that they aren't there to help you it's easy to become aggressive and angry. What is more startling is when you believe that you aren't acting this way. So what do I do now? Do I just change back to the way I was? Simply put, I can't do that. I do not see the world the way I used to and there are days when I don't know that everything is going to be okay. But there is a part of me that believes there is more out there for me. Someone very important to me once said that 'you have faith until you lose it' and that is completely true and I haven't completely lost my faith. I can only hope that my faith, kindness and everything else that has dwindled of late begins to grow.
Because there are things in this life that are worth believing in and fighting for. It is just a matter of finding them.
It is so easy to lie. To believe that you are not something or someone that you really are. But why do we lie to other people and why do we lie to ourselves? Is it because it's fun or is it because the truth is a very scary thing? Lately, I have been lying to myself because the truth is something that I did not want to believe.
People around me have mentioned that I have an attitude, am full of myself, or am abrasive. Most of the time I have brushed it off and told myself they were wrong, that I am one of the most level headed person. Looking at myself now, that simply isn't true.
I'm not really sure what to say or what to conclude because it is a bizarre feeling. I promised myself that I would never lose my modesty and sincerity. Somewhere along the way I have lost a lot of that and probably too much of it. I think one of the reasons that has happened is that nothing really spectacular has happened to me lately. Sure things have not been bad but I haven't had a moment where I knew everything was going to be okay or witnessed something that was truly inspiring. As a result I've developed this chip on my shoulder and began trying to protect myself.
When you become suspicious of people and feel that they aren't there to help you it's easy to become aggressive and angry. What is more startling is when you believe that you aren't acting this way. So what do I do now? Do I just change back to the way I was? Simply put, I can't do that. I do not see the world the way I used to and there are days when I don't know that everything is going to be okay. But there is a part of me that believes there is more out there for me. Someone very important to me once said that 'you have faith until you lose it' and that is completely true and I haven't completely lost my faith. I can only hope that my faith, kindness and everything else that has dwindled of late begins to grow.
Because there are things in this life that are worth believing in and fighting for. It is just a matter of finding them.