"You've been misguided, you're hiding in shadows, for so very long..."
As time passes, it occurs to me every so often that I need to grow up and move past things. And then I do.
Until they become a problem again.
It's when I realize that I can't do my job because I'm too caught up in my own whatever that this all becomes a problem. Last night, I was too busy fighting my own fucking battle to be emotional support for someone who needed me. Failing to be there makes me feel like a failure, further compounding how fucked up I already felt.
I'm glad you were there to give me a hand up. If you hadn't been, the world around me might have stopped.
I have too many people to look out for, too many other battles to fight. This was not okay. This has to be okay.
Let's see if I can get past this this time. Let's see if it can last.
"This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms
I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in"
Until they become a problem again.
It's when I realize that I can't do my job because I'm too caught up in my own whatever that this all becomes a problem. Last night, I was too busy fighting my own fucking battle to be emotional support for someone who needed me. Failing to be there makes me feel like a failure, further compounding how fucked up I already felt.
I'm glad you were there to give me a hand up. If you hadn't been, the world around me might have stopped.
I have too many people to look out for, too many other battles to fight. This was not okay. This has to be okay.
Let's see if I can get past this this time. Let's see if it can last.
"This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms
I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in"