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Oh goddess, this irrational fear thing needs to go. Forever. I don't want this in my head. This is not me. This is nothing like me. I barely even understand this emotion, how do I make it go away?
Okay, heart. Stop pounding. You have no reason to be afraid of something that shouldn't ever happen in the first place. You have this thing called trust, you need to believe in it more.
I hate feeling like this. I hate this emotion. I'm so ashamed of this I pretend that it isn't there until I believe it. I have to believe it isn't there. But I don't know how to make it go away.
Please don't break me. Please, oh gods, please... I don't want to be broken.
"How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me?
You're the part of me that I don't wanna see..."
Okay, heart. Stop pounding. You have no reason to be afraid of something that shouldn't ever happen in the first place. You have this thing called trust, you need to believe in it more.
I hate feeling like this. I hate this emotion. I'm so ashamed of this I pretend that it isn't there until I believe it. I have to believe it isn't there. But I don't know how to make it go away.
Please don't break me. Please, oh gods, please... I don't want to be broken.
"How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me?
You're the part of me that I don't wanna see..."