I keep thinking about what to write but have yet to figure it it.  Best way to put it is I just feel defeated and don’t want to keep going on fighting.  I feel abandoned and forgotten about along with feeling replaced.   I feel like I am failure pretty much in several areas.  I feel inadiquited around my friends who seem to have there act together ( Read more... )

So I hate 8am classes.  I really hate 8am class having to get up for one every day really is starting to get to me.  Plus it so much infomation over the summer.  As for how I am doing I have my good days and I have my bad days.  The bad days are really hard and general I can predict the next day based on how tired I am and how much raw stuff I have ( Read more... )

So after a little trouble and few phone calls the internet now works.  I dont care how or why it works.  I just know it works.  It was kind of intersting going life with out internet for a week and it was not as bad as I though it was going to be.  Annoying and bothersome but not to bad,  Not something I really enjoy doing and I feel out of touch ( Read more... )

Figure I might want to clear some things up from my last post or at least translate the stuff into my own words. The poem something that in many ways has always describe me in many ways since I first heard it back in jr high and ti been somethign that been on my mind a lot resently.  There have been a lot of things that I have be force to relieze ( Read more... )

I keep my paint brush with me ( Read more... )

Hmm life is intersting right now.  Yeah I know it been a while since a real up date.  I just not had  any motivation to do it.  I am full of my own stuggles and problems and question.  My emotions are completely out of balance and jumpy.  I really should be dealing with it better.  I dont know,  My heart never been known to heal very well ( Read more... )

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=Timelessblur

Like matt I ask everyone to be honest.  Unlike the other one it is weakness side this time

Well I might as well start it spreading.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Timelessblur

I also kind of wondering what the answer will be as well

Well on a plus note I did figure out what was wrong with my palm.  it was some 3rd party software that mess it up.  This time I got smart and went to look for support on palm website and learned how to do a hard reset and fix it ( Read more... )

Well long time no update.  I been meaning to for a while now and since I gotten home it been on my mind.  That and some people who will remanded unnamed have be bugging me to update ( Read more... )