I was trying to fly but couldn't find the wings, then you lifted me up and spun me around
Tonight at Search the leaders announced that the next weekend was cancelled and that Friday 17th April would be last meeting ever of Search.
I am completely and utterly devastated.
I mean we kind of knew it was coming but we were fighting tooth and nail to keep it from happening but for them to just rip the rug out from under our feet like this, after giving us false hope for the last couple of weeks, I honestly felt extremely angry and betrayed.
It was all I could do to keep from crying right there and then.
For those on my flist that don't know, Search is a religious youth group that meets on a Friday evening in the local (Maghera) pastoral centre and that has weekends for new members/candidates twice a year in April/May & Novemeber/December.
And no before you jump to conclusions, we're not a bunch of bible-bashing, jesus freaks!
Search was a way for young people to have a connection with their faith while making new friends that would stay with you for your entire life (Well that's been my collective experience at Search).
My candidate weekend was in December '07 and I can say, with my hand on my heart, that it saved my life.
I was a complete and utter mess that year, I was severely depressed and skipping school to stay crying in my room every day.
Then one of my best friends winchester_anon (Edel to all you Searchers out there!) convinced me to go on the Search weekend.
And I'd never experienced anything like it.
This group of, frankly wonderful, people welcomed me and treated me like an old friend.
It was the absolute best weekend of my life.
During the talks, I got my eyes opened to what horrible things people had to live through and it put my problems in a whole different light.
You wouldn't know to look at them, that they'd been through such tough stuff but they had and they beat it and I think that's what began to lift my depression.
But what really made my life turn around was the famous "Search Secret" which I'm not going to detail here because even though Search is basically over, I don't feel right talking about something that Searchers treasure.
Wow this is extremely ramble-ly!
I'll shut up soon I promise! ;)
I may sound pretty selfish here but I'm really pissed that this weekend isn't going ahead because I was really looking forward to being leader of Care.
I had all the stuff sorted for the bags and I even had sixteen Search books made up.
I decided to be ~creative this time around and make the books myself.
Yeah I'm quite proud of it! :D
And to all the Searchers on my flist I send you all millions of hugs! I love you guys so much and I hope we never lose touch!
Just you lot try to get rid of me! It'll be one mark off impossible to do ;)
Love in Christo x
I am completely and utterly devastated.
I mean we kind of knew it was coming but we were fighting tooth and nail to keep it from happening but for them to just rip the rug out from under our feet like this, after giving us false hope for the last couple of weeks, I honestly felt extremely angry and betrayed.
It was all I could do to keep from crying right there and then.
For those on my flist that don't know, Search is a religious youth group that meets on a Friday evening in the local (Maghera) pastoral centre and that has weekends for new members/candidates twice a year in April/May & Novemeber/December.
And no before you jump to conclusions, we're not a bunch of bible-bashing, jesus freaks!
Search was a way for young people to have a connection with their faith while making new friends that would stay with you for your entire life (Well that's been my collective experience at Search).
My candidate weekend was in December '07 and I can say, with my hand on my heart, that it saved my life.
I was a complete and utter mess that year, I was severely depressed and skipping school to stay crying in my room every day.
Then one of my best friends winchester_anon (Edel to all you Searchers out there!) convinced me to go on the Search weekend.
And I'd never experienced anything like it.
This group of, frankly wonderful, people welcomed me and treated me like an old friend.
It was the absolute best weekend of my life.
During the talks, I got my eyes opened to what horrible things people had to live through and it put my problems in a whole different light.
You wouldn't know to look at them, that they'd been through such tough stuff but they had and they beat it and I think that's what began to lift my depression.
But what really made my life turn around was the famous "Search Secret" which I'm not going to detail here because even though Search is basically over, I don't feel right talking about something that Searchers treasure.
Wow this is extremely ramble-ly!
I'll shut up soon I promise! ;)
I may sound pretty selfish here but I'm really pissed that this weekend isn't going ahead because I was really looking forward to being leader of Care.
I had all the stuff sorted for the bags and I even had sixteen Search books made up.
I decided to be ~creative this time around and make the books myself.
Yeah I'm quite proud of it! :D
And to all the Searchers on my flist I send you all millions of hugs! I love you guys so much and I hope we never lose touch!
Just you lot try to get rid of me! It'll be one mark off impossible to do ;)
Love in Christo x