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todays horoscope mixed with yesturdays livejournal post. bad combination. not to mention the lack of understanding i put into the post, which to that im sorry.
You will find yourself in a rather mercurial mood today, Timothy. You seem to change your mind every quarter hour or so. One day you decide to start a construction company, and the next day you are making plans for your new travel agency. You will have to choose a direction once and for all. You are losing time and will fall behind if you don't decide soon. So don't wait!
To set the record straight. There are very clear and definate reasons why I can't live with the one person I want to live with. Very clear reasons, actually too clear. But I can't help but be pissed off that at the time I want him around, he is leaving for vacation, another situation I can not control. I also can't help being pissed that I have to chose yet again between school and living here in EL. I apparently can't do both. I try but it just never works itself out. Do I have decided to drop summer classes and work full time starting July 1st. I will then apply to LCC and pick up the LPN nursing degree that I wanted two years ago. It should take me a little over a year and with that I can take the exam and then finish out my BA at state. I should be able to work as soon as I graduate and finally pay off everything I can't pay off this year from working. It only sets me back a year, which is good because honestly I am not ready to graduate next year anyway. This will give Ben time to figure out what he is doing so if our paths match then we can move on from this college experience and into our adult lives. If they don't then I'll be forced to say good bye and I will move on into my own experience far far away from this hell that I've put myself into for so long (ex. MSU and EL). So that being said, I would like to apologize for the previous post and the accusatory comments made in that journal.
There are clear reasons why I can not live with him, and I actually understand and point them out all the time, I just don't like them. And I am really angry about his leaving but like I said, that can not be helped. There is good to come of it though, when he gets back, I should have everything figured out and we can move on.
PS. Happy 8 months! You won't be here but there it is anyway. :)
Moving on I am seriously looking into the LCC thing again, I think I could work full time and take classes part time and maybe even encourage some one else to do the same and finish a degree. We could possibly finish our degrees at the same time. :) I would really like to have an LPN license for when the political science field fails to show me promise, which it will inevitably do. I can work in the hospital or a private practice which was a goal of mine when teaching was not an option.
Well I'm off. I can't focus on this anymore.
Ciao...
You will find yourself in a rather mercurial mood today, Timothy. You seem to change your mind every quarter hour or so. One day you decide to start a construction company, and the next day you are making plans for your new travel agency. You will have to choose a direction once and for all. You are losing time and will fall behind if you don't decide soon. So don't wait!
To set the record straight. There are very clear and definate reasons why I can't live with the one person I want to live with. Very clear reasons, actually too clear. But I can't help but be pissed off that at the time I want him around, he is leaving for vacation, another situation I can not control. I also can't help being pissed that I have to chose yet again between school and living here in EL. I apparently can't do both. I try but it just never works itself out. Do I have decided to drop summer classes and work full time starting July 1st. I will then apply to LCC and pick up the LPN nursing degree that I wanted two years ago. It should take me a little over a year and with that I can take the exam and then finish out my BA at state. I should be able to work as soon as I graduate and finally pay off everything I can't pay off this year from working. It only sets me back a year, which is good because honestly I am not ready to graduate next year anyway. This will give Ben time to figure out what he is doing so if our paths match then we can move on from this college experience and into our adult lives. If they don't then I'll be forced to say good bye and I will move on into my own experience far far away from this hell that I've put myself into for so long (ex. MSU and EL). So that being said, I would like to apologize for the previous post and the accusatory comments made in that journal.
There are clear reasons why I can not live with him, and I actually understand and point them out all the time, I just don't like them. And I am really angry about his leaving but like I said, that can not be helped. There is good to come of it though, when he gets back, I should have everything figured out and we can move on.
PS. Happy 8 months! You won't be here but there it is anyway. :)
Moving on I am seriously looking into the LCC thing again, I think I could work full time and take classes part time and maybe even encourage some one else to do the same and finish a degree. We could possibly finish our degrees at the same time. :) I would really like to have an LPN license for when the political science field fails to show me promise, which it will inevitably do. I can work in the hospital or a private practice which was a goal of mine when teaching was not an option.
Well I'm off. I can't focus on this anymore.
Ciao...