the sky is grey...
so fitting, its so dreary and grey outside..
the world is so funny sometimes. I left a 5 year relationship about a month ago, and my ex(from my younger and dumber days) is getting married. invited me to the wedding. shes 21. not very cute,but skinny, naive... hes 45.and apparently just keeps getting more charming and more attractive with age..
the age thing doesnt bother me, i was only 18 when i fell for him. (apparently i have a thing for older guys). but still, it just kind of stings.
granted, i left him. hell, i went with him across the country, left my family and life back home on a whim. only to leave him with no warning or notice. i just wasnt home one night when he got back from a rally.
he even asked if id fly out for the wedding... since im still family and hed love me to be there.. (and a little piece of me wonders if he just wants one more goodbye, like in april..)
who knows... maybe ill go. show my support for the happy couple. show that im not a petty asshole. even though i am...