sigh
I just got back from dinner with my grandma and papa. I sat down at the computer and then I got really depressed. I don’t know why! This happens to me a lot, I think that I should go take my pill. That only puts me to sleep, and then the problems are back in the morning. This happens to me to much, I am going on a cut with draw. My grand parents said that I was into some weird things when they read my LJ. Whatever, I want to die, I have no reason too! I wish that, I don’t know the doctors could just give me a pill to make it all stop! Just the pain go away, far away!
I miss my friends and I miss Alex… NO I can’t say that!!!!!! I have to forget her, forget her now!!! How I wish this was as easy as taken a pill too. I mean after all she did to me I should hate her, but I can’t! I got a message on my phone and then I checked all of them to see if there was any that I wanted to delete. And then I heard her voice, talking about hanging out with my cousin at Hottopic and getting a lip ring. It didn’t move my emotions in any way, is that a good thin? Who knows?