Ground!!!!!!!!
Well umm, today really sucks! My dad is about 700 miles away and yet he still grounded me. On top of that I am PMSing today!!!!!!!! All I have to do is this. Hum, I wonder if I could go to the book store today. Whatever I am still sick, but I feel a whole lot better! I wonder what tomorrow is going to be like I mean it will be 6†6†06. I ( Read more... )
Why do people suffer? Fall of man. Why do INNOCENT LITTLE CHILDREN SUFFER then you hateful nasty christian? Well...if you think about it, if you have younger siblings or children, you KNOW there are no innocent little children in the world--while that doesn't mean they deserve all the horrible things that may possibly happen to them, it does mean that every once in a while a punishment might be good for them in the long run.
Most people at this point decide I'm evil and I'm too smart, or I have too many answers for everything and they want nothing to do with me. *sigh* The biblical theory is that all fear is born out of worry of punishment (or of consequence--It's a verse somewhere in one of the numbered little letters from John right next to Jude and revelation...I think it's in 1st John...maybe chapter five...*grumbles*):
Fear of falling: Why don't you jump off the cliff? Umm...I might break all my bones and die a horrible death. That sort of thing. The reason why most people can't love God (or say they can't) is because God isn't just 'feel good, do whatever you want' He's also supposed to be JUST, and justice in most cases means "you're DOOOMED! THE END IS NIGH!!!"
*sets Jess-emo on a couch and pulls out her psychiatrist glasses*
It seems more like the reson why you "can't love God" is because you're afraid of what might happen if you do--either it's too good to be true (which, um...it really isn't. Prepare to be spit on and publically mocked, YOU'RE A CHRISTIAN! *blows balloons*) or because it will be the Muslim version of God--Allah is merciful, but impersonal, so why is he merciful? Um...no reason...he just is...ohhhh....I SO hope I'm on HIS good side *tremble tremble tremble* Muslims actually have a lot to be afraid of. And most of the time, if you're not good enough, that's just the way it is, you're doomed, and all your trying was for nothing. Muslims probably live in constant fear and self consciousness. How many good tallys did I get to combat the fact that I gave some chick 'the eye' in the supermarket? Or worse, "I've been good lately, so this sin doesn't count"
(We have an arabic numbering system you know, you ever wonder if this might have something to do with it? *grin* I have.)
It's fun to try to analyze yourself sometimes and ask why you feel certain ways (I really got into analyzing myself back in middle school.) Once you figure out what the problem is, finding out more on the subject usually helps. If God isn't one or the other of the personalities above, then What is He?
*smile* Maybe why you're afraid is because you don't know for sure what He is? Just a thought. Most people who aren't Christians (and even a good portion of the people who SAY they're Christians) Often have the same problem--I hypothesize that this is part of the reason why people get so worked up over things like the Da Vinci Code. They have a feeling it's wrong, but they aren't quite sure how to say it, for fear that they themselves might not know enough ABOUT the truth to say exactly what IS right.
(shrug* Like I said. I think too much. Six years old, lying in bed trying to figure out what Heaven really was, that sort of thing. It's probably enough to give someone really bad insomnia for a couple of years.
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it is really nice to hear that you do love God! Let me tell you why I don't belive in him. I was once just like you. I thought thtat if I belived in a God that every thing would work out. I never asked himm for anything because knowing that he loved me was all that i needed. My father takes out his anger on me alot. When he gets into a fight with his girl-friend, bad day, or whatever. But for about six mounths i would go to bed crying trying to ask God to just let me understand why... Nothing ever happened, in fact it got harder on me. My friend showed me something called Wicca. It was like, witch craft. I stoped it and tryed the whole God thing aging but I couldn' do it
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Well...Every spell I ever tried didn't work. It felt as though I was trying to empower myself on emptiness. For a while it felt good-like i could actually do things on my own for once, like I wasn't helpless but...I was guilty as all getout, i had to hide it from my parents because it would have absolutely DESTROYED my dad if he ever found out...well...I gave it up because the guilt was too much, because it didn't seem to work...because I wasn't strong enough to keep it up and persist with it. (Oh yes, I was a very depressing little individual in middle school...up until about sophomore year. Not that I've exactly become NORMAL now, but still...)
After that, I kept telling myself that I'd screwed up and blackened myself, that I was nothing and was going back to God because I had nothing else, and I didn't even really beleive in him until everything else fell apart--heck I probably didn't even beleive in Him then!
Ah yes, guilt trip...
It's surprising...people seem to either like to tell themselves they are the worst of sinners, or tell themselves that their better than a whole pile of other people so they should be fine. Every time I bring up my wicca thing, or my current shounan-ai problem, or the fact that a series I read has incest or something, everyone just kind of shrugs it off, possibly even approves like 'good, you're just as dirty as me, but still better/worse' Heh...you seem to be doing what I do all too often. The problem with us is that we seem to think we're the only ones in the world who have our problems, when really, I we were to ask...you have to wonder just how many people have done wicca, or have tried something of that sort...even in a church or such! It's temptation. it's something that's unfortunately become human nature almost--a sort of lure.
If your dad's a moron and can't control himself, then that's his problem. I don't know why HE still goes on about God with what he does--we young people like to be especially conscious of acts of hypocrisy, and that must seem like a blatant act of it to you, but still...you can't let humanity's actions color your perception of God. God isn't the one who comes into the world as a dying creature due to sin. God isn't the one who has all of his creation attacking him in outrage and pain due to the actions of Adam and Eve. to be overwhelmed with it...well...it happens. And some people don't take being overwhelmed all that gracefully. Some people shrink back into their little hard carapaces like I do, and wait for it all to leave them alone, some people just have to make others suffer for it. And neither one is exactly right (the second one is not at all right, even)
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Just a thought. You don't even need to take me all that seriously. Just try to think about it...another thing that people like to do, is they like to make God solely a supernatural being...well...God created lawn stuff too you know--and that's plenty boring and ordinary, right? God sometimes seems to be more ordinary than you'd expect. *sheepish smile* At least that's my experience...as I said before I tend to think too much, so maybe that's just me. *shrug* I'm not even sure if I'm a Christian...HEH! Even the apostle Paul biblically expressed a slight edge of doubt as to whether he was doing God's will and if he would ever make it to heaven, and he did a whole lot more stuff for God than I could probably ever do, or could ever be asked to do.
*shrug* Sorry if my thinking's all over the place...I tend to like to rant and rave quite a bit about anything religious--non christian stuff too. (I'm a real glutton for mythologies, and I really like some of the Islamic legends--they're beautifully written you know, very vivid imagery.) For a while I'd hoped to become a minister but...well...I'm female, and most female ministers are really really really out there in their beleifs. (oooh, and I'm not?) Not that there aren't exceptions, but there's a really negative reputation around it...and I can't talk to large groups of people to save my life. *shudder*
-j
ps. wow...this is really long *sweatdrop* umm...I like to rant?
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