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everything will be okay, everything will be okay, everything will be okay...right?
What if I never get out of this rut? What if I stay as bitter and emotionally unavailable as I am right now, just because some jackass screwed me over? What happens if I actually don't end up meeting the guy I'm supposed to be with? Or even less than that, what if I don't have another relationship for another year? Honestly, a girl cannot go that long without kissing someone. It's ridiculous to even ask her to do it.
On another note, I'm so excited for my birthday...and I'm not even really sure why. Yeah, it's the big 1-8 but beyond that I'd be able to vote, it's not that monumental. I don't know. I'm excited though. Probably mostly for going to a titty bar with Sara and maybe a few guys. And for being able to wear some smokin' hot clothes I got for my birthday. Only if I actually liked someone then I could look smokin' hot for him on my birthday too....damn. hahaha.
I'm seriously hoping to find at least a semi-decent guy in the fall...preferably a very good kisser...I'm tired of having to "teach" guys how to actually kiss a girl...
What if I never get out of this rut? What if I stay as bitter and emotionally unavailable as I am right now, just because some jackass screwed me over? What happens if I actually don't end up meeting the guy I'm supposed to be with? Or even less than that, what if I don't have another relationship for another year? Honestly, a girl cannot go that long without kissing someone. It's ridiculous to even ask her to do it.
On another note, I'm so excited for my birthday...and I'm not even really sure why. Yeah, it's the big 1-8 but beyond that I'd be able to vote, it's not that monumental. I don't know. I'm excited though. Probably mostly for going to a titty bar with Sara and maybe a few guys. And for being able to wear some smokin' hot clothes I got for my birthday. Only if I actually liked someone then I could look smokin' hot for him on my birthday too....damn. hahaha.
I'm seriously hoping to find at least a semi-decent guy in the fall...preferably a very good kisser...I'm tired of having to "teach" guys how to actually kiss a girl...