Do not want. :(
I...I have been crying so much. I cried for HOURS last night, and now this morning. I don't want us to give up, but maybe I'm expecting too much.
It can't be ok to be afraid of your husband, can it?
Even if we did separate, I'd be the one screwed over. Everything is his, the car, the furniture...I'd be left with clothing and 20 some animals. The house is in both our names at least.
I don't want to give up. Everything I do is for him, everything. I think about him all the time, I love him more than anything. But when you find yourself standing away from your husband with pepper spray in your hand to prevent him from hurting the dogs while he laughs coldly and threatens to harm himself...
His rage is like a whole separate personality. It starts with tiredness and frustration getting mixed, slowly becomes anger, and then a few things spark the rage that just takes over. He's a different person, a cold, cruel man who speaks with a poison tongue.
He's never, ever harmed me physically to this day, but last night was the first time he tried to harm the dogs to hurt me. They're fine, they were never injured, they're quick to get away and run to me.
I just don't know what to do...
It can't be ok to be afraid of your husband, can it?
Even if we did separate, I'd be the one screwed over. Everything is his, the car, the furniture...I'd be left with clothing and 20 some animals. The house is in both our names at least.
I don't want to give up. Everything I do is for him, everything. I think about him all the time, I love him more than anything. But when you find yourself standing away from your husband with pepper spray in your hand to prevent him from hurting the dogs while he laughs coldly and threatens to harm himself...
His rage is like a whole separate personality. It starts with tiredness and frustration getting mixed, slowly becomes anger, and then a few things spark the rage that just takes over. He's a different person, a cold, cruel man who speaks with a poison tongue.
He's never, ever harmed me physically to this day, but last night was the first time he tried to harm the dogs to hurt me. They're fine, they were never injured, they're quick to get away and run to me.
I just don't know what to do...