Ok...so i haven't updated in forever.....
And i have a good reason...ok...so maybe i don't. but who honestly gives a rat's ass right? Now i'm down to one friend...ONE FRIEND!!! How fucking pathetic is that...i've gotten so tired of people and have been in such a bad mood for so long i've pretty much told all of my friends to fuck off... And as for this one friend i have it's a chick that i REALLY REALLY like... And go figure! she doesnt like me -__- This whole...i just like you as a friends thing is driving me fuckin crazy. For once in my damned life can i pleaze have a girlfriend who isn't nuts...and who likes me...and who isn't drunk when i ask her out and forgets about me the next day! (that only happened once...) Now...as for this chick i like...me and her practically agree on everything... Which would be awesome to have in a girlfriend...but since i've been sitting at home doing nothing for the past...oh...lets see...year >.> I naturally look like shit...which i honest to god didn't before all this happened. So now i have to A. Find a way to get her to realize i love her and see if she can ever feel the same way. Or B. Constantly sleep and work out and hope i die of exhaustion. Wow...damn is that a toss up or what?! So, Mark...if you ever read this...i don't know why the hell you aint talking to me anymore but i'm so tired right now i don't care...have a nice life man! And Jess....listen, whatever i said to piss you off i'm sorry...i honestly can't remember becase i was stoned at the time...so i hope someday you can forgive me...(by the way...that was the first time i ever got stone...and it wasn't pretty) Jenny...sorry but to be honest after hanging out with you...2 times...i can't stand you...i don't know how Mark dated you as long as he did...unless your a great fuck or you can suck the crome off a trailer hitch or something...jesus man...what the fuck were you thinking?!?! Krisi...Listen i'm sorry things ended the way they did...that was the first time i ever really fell in love and it was a new thing for me...if i knew what i know now and it happened i think you and me would still be together....but i guess that's life. So i'm sorry. Let's see...who am i missing... Oh Jay...you can suck my white ass you peice of donkey shit that was eaten by a fucking lama and shit out again. Let's see...who's next... Hmm... thinking...thinking...Oh what the hell it's my journal i'll let you hear a little about my wonderful amazing stupendously FUCKED UP LIFE. My father is in jail for armed robbery my mother is going more nuts by the day and my little brother has a problem with beating the shit out of his classmates...and ya know what?!!? my mother said he's acting like me! awww aint that sweet?...fucking bitch. My grandparents who have so lovingly taken me in and put up with my ass for the past 4 years want me to get a steady job and get my GED so i can support myself and not have to live with my mother....ARE THEY SHITTING ME?! I would be fucking homeless before i life with her! So besides being lonely and hopeless my life is fine... >.> I hope you fuckers have a nice life....really....no honestly....i'm serious damnit!!! not really...i don't give a shit either way anymore...so fuck ya'll and have a nice night!