Loser
Click to viewThis is my favorite song to attempt to drum.
I suck at it.
I play it too slow. I can't do drum rolls right so those just sound like someone banging as hard and fast as they can, off kilter. As well, because it is hard for me to "get it right," I tend to hit the kit like I am trying to beat someone to death, rather than just tap out a nice steady rhythm. I also play it with my own style emphasis at differing points, (if I can even be so bold as to assume I have style and not that I just suck at drumming).
The thing is, as much as I suck at it, I love to play it. I get seriously into it. So much so that Floodplain has commented on my awesome "drummer face" while playing it.
Admittedly I don't just suck at this one song ... I suck at all of them.
I didn't realize how bad I suck at drumming over all until last night. I mean I know I am not inspirational or any drumming great. Yet I really thought I was quite a bit better than I am.
I'm not.
For the first time ever I took the headphones I bought for practicing and went out to practice last night. I sat behind the kit, headphones on, prepped myself a bit and then I started "Breed" and tried to play along.
It was horrible! The song goes so much faster than I can play. I was mucking it up, but I stuck with it until finally I was so out of sync that I couldn't play anymore.
I stopped the playback and wasn't discouraged. I mean, I know this song is hard to play, it is fucking Dave Grohl for Christs sake. He is amazing! and I am just a silly old lady who has only been trying to play, (for the first time ever in my life mind you), for the past two-n-half years now.
I started another song.
I sucked.
I started another.
I sucked.
And so the night progressed. Until I was back in the house wondering what else in life I thought I had some skill in that I actually sucked at. I had soon narrowed that down to pretty much everything.
I also found myself wondering if I was one of those assholes with too much self-confidence. You know those people who tell you how they can do this thing or that thing so perfectly. Then when they are tasked with doing said "thing" they are horrible at it.
By the end of the night I was pretty certain I was a overly self-confident no-talent asshole.
However, this morning I am back to loving myself and now I just want to get into the studio and bang the shit out of some drums until they submit to me and sound the way they are suppose to.
FUCK YOU DRUMS! I AM AWESOME AND YOU WILL BE MINE!
Muhahahahha!
Although, maybe this change in mind doesn't absolve me from being an asshole.
~TigressSky