Writing because I can't be sleeping
Dude that ying yoga really hurts. I thought you know that it would be uncomfortable or akward or hurt but in a good way where you know you're stretching but it just plain sucked. I mean it really was not cool. I could only hold the poses for about a minute and you're supposed to hold them for two to five minutes. Oh well. Naturally I'm going to try again tommorrow. Maybe its one of those things you need to get used to? Probably not. Its all good though, I feel really limber so maybe its worth it.
I didn't try the water therapy. I thought some more about it and decided that I probably wouldn't like it. I mean on one side, sure it would be great to "purify" my body, the other side is that I'm not sure that drinking 2 to 9 cups of water will purify anything. It might just flush out all my minerals and make me have to pee a lot. I didn't want to have to pee a bunch in the middle of my ying yoga...how much would that stink? I'm like half way through enduring unkown levels of torture when suddenly I've got to pee and then I'd have to get out of the stupid pose, put my spine back into alignment and get to the bathroom without going in my pants....yeah great way to start the morning, not.
To be fair to this ying yoga though, I'm not very pain tolerant, so it might just be me. I'll try it for a little while longer and see if it pans out. My regular practice after the ying was great though. I think some of it had to do with the ying before it. It did really help me focus in on what I was doing and it did really make the movement yoga easier and more free flowing. Sometimes I forget how hard it can be to sit still.
I also noticed that my mom and dad seem to start the morning off with a bitch session. I know they have it really hard and I know my mom is in a constant state of upset, but that kind of negative energy is really cramping my style. I'm trying to find ways around it. You know like finding a room far enough away from them that I don't get all angsty from it cause it does really bother me. I hate when I'm so open to others feelings and thoughts like that. It can be hard at college, but its even harder at home it seems. At least at college I could go to another building of find and empty space. At home, what other building to I go to? Its just plain old fiest all day everyday. I know I shouldn't be looking for a place of a way to escape it, but I can't help but feel a little suffocated by all of it. It makes me nervous and uneasy and it makes me into a person I don't want to be. I want to be more confident and outspoken. I think I'm doing a pretty good job working on becoming that way but I can feel myself regressing under the stress and tension in the house. Maybe I should get an MP3 player and just listen to music all the time.
I'm also trying to eat healthier. I've been enjoying some really delicious lunches but I need to think of something else to make. It had been all about a salad where I was getting a serving of veggie, fruit, dairy, and protien, but now I want to move on to something else to eat. Any thoughts on other things I can make where I would gain all of these components in the meal and the food would be tastey? After all part of what I'm trying to do is avoid BK.
I spent time looking at my last twenty lj entries. Woot communities filling up my lj space. Woot no really people entries on the first page and me being too lazy to check the second page. Kathleen I thought you updated more often and same with you Lisa. Guess you two are slacking cause of the summer ^_~ Maybe you've given up on lj as so many others have and gone the way of the facebook. CURSE YOU FACEBOOK!!!!
Just learned about the massive journal deletion. I don't know how to feel. The over all sense I get from my communities is that I should be pissed, but I'm having a hard time rallying that emotion. I checked out the WFI site and while I don't agree with what they want, I'm not angry at them for LJ's decisions. A lot of people are saying some really mean things about them. They aren't good people persay. They are definately fanatics and I'm sure they were hunting down some innocent people in their search, but I can't seem to get worked up over it. I know the idea of censorship or forcing others to obey censorship even when they are saying terrible things gets my hackles on the rise, but if lj alters their tos and enforces it then you know there are always other sites. I guess at the end of the day it doesn't really effect me so I'm not too upset. I asked for an update from one of my communities on the subject though. Maybe they will point out to me where all the inflamitory WFI stuff is. **Shrug**
I'm excited for Emma's graduation for her, but I"m soooo not looking foward to it for me. I hate these kind of party shin digs. There will be family I don't want to talk to and I don't know what to say to. There will be a herd of Emma's friends who are all very much not like me. There will be a whole host of cleaning and other preparation that will make mom angry. There will be just a lot of emotions and fiestiness. Hopefully none of the fiestness will be at me. Likely most of it will.
I think I like waking up at 6 even if it makes me a little tired. I think I like writing in lj and just writing in general even if it takes a little bit of work. Meh, we'll see though.
No word from Zac, the cloud coverage there must really be rough.
I didn't try the water therapy. I thought some more about it and decided that I probably wouldn't like it. I mean on one side, sure it would be great to "purify" my body, the other side is that I'm not sure that drinking 2 to 9 cups of water will purify anything. It might just flush out all my minerals and make me have to pee a lot. I didn't want to have to pee a bunch in the middle of my ying yoga...how much would that stink? I'm like half way through enduring unkown levels of torture when suddenly I've got to pee and then I'd have to get out of the stupid pose, put my spine back into alignment and get to the bathroom without going in my pants....yeah great way to start the morning, not.
To be fair to this ying yoga though, I'm not very pain tolerant, so it might just be me. I'll try it for a little while longer and see if it pans out. My regular practice after the ying was great though. I think some of it had to do with the ying before it. It did really help me focus in on what I was doing and it did really make the movement yoga easier and more free flowing. Sometimes I forget how hard it can be to sit still.
I also noticed that my mom and dad seem to start the morning off with a bitch session. I know they have it really hard and I know my mom is in a constant state of upset, but that kind of negative energy is really cramping my style. I'm trying to find ways around it. You know like finding a room far enough away from them that I don't get all angsty from it cause it does really bother me. I hate when I'm so open to others feelings and thoughts like that. It can be hard at college, but its even harder at home it seems. At least at college I could go to another building of find and empty space. At home, what other building to I go to? Its just plain old fiest all day everyday. I know I shouldn't be looking for a place of a way to escape it, but I can't help but feel a little suffocated by all of it. It makes me nervous and uneasy and it makes me into a person I don't want to be. I want to be more confident and outspoken. I think I'm doing a pretty good job working on becoming that way but I can feel myself regressing under the stress and tension in the house. Maybe I should get an MP3 player and just listen to music all the time.
I'm also trying to eat healthier. I've been enjoying some really delicious lunches but I need to think of something else to make. It had been all about a salad where I was getting a serving of veggie, fruit, dairy, and protien, but now I want to move on to something else to eat. Any thoughts on other things I can make where I would gain all of these components in the meal and the food would be tastey? After all part of what I'm trying to do is avoid BK.
I spent time looking at my last twenty lj entries. Woot communities filling up my lj space. Woot no really people entries on the first page and me being too lazy to check the second page. Kathleen I thought you updated more often and same with you Lisa. Guess you two are slacking cause of the summer ^_~ Maybe you've given up on lj as so many others have and gone the way of the facebook. CURSE YOU FACEBOOK!!!!
Just learned about the massive journal deletion. I don't know how to feel. The over all sense I get from my communities is that I should be pissed, but I'm having a hard time rallying that emotion. I checked out the WFI site and while I don't agree with what they want, I'm not angry at them for LJ's decisions. A lot of people are saying some really mean things about them. They aren't good people persay. They are definately fanatics and I'm sure they were hunting down some innocent people in their search, but I can't seem to get worked up over it. I know the idea of censorship or forcing others to obey censorship even when they are saying terrible things gets my hackles on the rise, but if lj alters their tos and enforces it then you know there are always other sites. I guess at the end of the day it doesn't really effect me so I'm not too upset. I asked for an update from one of my communities on the subject though. Maybe they will point out to me where all the inflamitory WFI stuff is. **Shrug**
I'm excited for Emma's graduation for her, but I"m soooo not looking foward to it for me. I hate these kind of party shin digs. There will be family I don't want to talk to and I don't know what to say to. There will be a herd of Emma's friends who are all very much not like me. There will be a whole host of cleaning and other preparation that will make mom angry. There will be just a lot of emotions and fiestiness. Hopefully none of the fiestness will be at me. Likely most of it will.
I think I like waking up at 6 even if it makes me a little tired. I think I like writing in lj and just writing in general even if it takes a little bit of work. Meh, we'll see though.
No word from Zac, the cloud coverage there must really be rough.