End of the week
Well as the saying goes - Thank God it's Friday. Although it's only been a 4 day week it's been pretty rough as far am my OCD problems go. For some reason I had a pretty bad attack yesterday - basically where my OCD leads to all out panic/confusion attacks. I ended up calling the psycholgist on the phone earlier in the day and then going into the office yesterday afternoon. It was enough to calm me down and get me through the evening until I went for a regular appointment this morning. I was much calmer and talked to him about the particular obsessions I'm suffering from at the moment and how they seem to be affecting me in a more emotional way than usual. He mentioned that I might have to change my work enviorment or even go into hospital for a few days but for now we're going to wait until Monday when I see the Psychiatrist and see if a higher dose/change of medication can help. It's truly exhausting.
On a lighter note I got my copies of Junjo Romantica 11 and Selfish Mr Mermaid vol 2 today and have already devoured them. I'm trying to cut back on my manga purchases to only those authors I really follow instead of buying too many one shots. Of course Junjo is on my must by list so I treated my self to the second volume of Selfish Mr Mermaid while I was at it. I also got the latest Shakira album which I'm enjoying. I very rarely buy music (or download it) but this was one I had to buy.
I haven't gamed much in the last couple of days or done any drawing/painting etc, mainly due to my state of mind but I'm hoping this weekend will be a creative one.
I did buy Wii Fit plus for my Wii fit and have been doing that on and off the last couple of days which has been fun - and exhausting - and hope to keep doing it as I really do need to lose weight. I'm trying not to worry about it too much at the moment as I just can't deal with anymore drama in my life. I'll just have to be fat at the moment - I'll diet when I'm slightly more sane. (I'll never be totally sane of course).
Oddly enough the Psychologist asked if I journalled and I told him I had just started again as a way to keep perspective on my day to day life. I wanted to prove to myself that I did more than worry/panic and eat. I'm going to try to keep up this online journal but I might also start a paper one as well. I have such terrible writing and, because I rarely use a pen to write, I get terrible cramp if I write too much or for too long. Oh well, another hurdle to get over.
I can start journaling online about my journaling offline....yes I need help.
later!
On a lighter note I got my copies of Junjo Romantica 11 and Selfish Mr Mermaid vol 2 today and have already devoured them. I'm trying to cut back on my manga purchases to only those authors I really follow instead of buying too many one shots. Of course Junjo is on my must by list so I treated my self to the second volume of Selfish Mr Mermaid while I was at it. I also got the latest Shakira album which I'm enjoying. I very rarely buy music (or download it) but this was one I had to buy.
I haven't gamed much in the last couple of days or done any drawing/painting etc, mainly due to my state of mind but I'm hoping this weekend will be a creative one.
I did buy Wii Fit plus for my Wii fit and have been doing that on and off the last couple of days which has been fun - and exhausting - and hope to keep doing it as I really do need to lose weight. I'm trying not to worry about it too much at the moment as I just can't deal with anymore drama in my life. I'll just have to be fat at the moment - I'll diet when I'm slightly more sane. (I'll never be totally sane of course).
Oddly enough the Psychologist asked if I journalled and I told him I had just started again as a way to keep perspective on my day to day life. I wanted to prove to myself that I did more than worry/panic and eat. I'm going to try to keep up this online journal but I might also start a paper one as well. I have such terrible writing and, because I rarely use a pen to write, I get terrible cramp if I write too much or for too long. Oh well, another hurdle to get over.
I can start journaling online about my journaling offline....yes I need help.
later!