Ho hum
It's a gorgeous day outside, and as usual I don't want to go to work. I need a vacation, a day off, something. I need a change. I feel like I've been going through the same routine for so long, and I am starting to get antsy. I don't know what kind of change I need, whether something about myself or something else, but I want to move away from something. I think I am in the middle of change, and I think it hit me a little bit before everyone else started back to school again. I'm not one of you anymore, I'm different. I'm in the grown-up world of 9-5, or in my case 7:30-5:30, where the people I see most are the people I work with. During the summer I could more easily forget that I was no longer part of that collegiate world, but now I feel alien to the OSU campus, like I don't belong there. The only part of it I see now is way across the river at the veterinary building, a place where none of you look at differently, or probably even see when you drive by. Some might say this is still PMS Apryl, but like I said, this began before that, and it's not P anymore. I think sometimes PMS just opens women's eyes to what they may not have fully acknowledged without the crazy hormones.
I wasn't feeling very pretty this morning when I woke up, haven't really for a while. I've had no reason to dress pretty for the Professor or get dolled up for anything, and so it's been jeans and t-shirts for too long. Plus the recent additions to my hips and thighs don't help lol. Not much is making me feel better, save for my 1.5 mile jog, so this morning before work, I got out all my old prom dressed and my maid of honor dress, and I played dress-up. I did my make-up for work and pulled my hair up so the curls would frame my face and give me a curl tiara, and I put on the royal blue dress from my junior prom. I remember the looks of admiration I got in that, and the reaction of a certain popular boy in AP Chem when he was looking at the pictures. I felt a little better. After a few more dresses, I put on the red dress. I even got out my old prom jewelry, the rhinestone necklace that comes to a v at my neck, and matching earrings. I remembered why I had my not so modest moments. I am the only one who sees the real princess because I don't go that far in dress up around other people. It's not the same that way.
Maybe I should take off for a few days, go visit one of my friends I haven't seen in a while. Someone in my situation, graduated, working, and also needing to run away. Any takers?
I wasn't feeling very pretty this morning when I woke up, haven't really for a while. I've had no reason to dress pretty for the Professor or get dolled up for anything, and so it's been jeans and t-shirts for too long. Plus the recent additions to my hips and thighs don't help lol. Not much is making me feel better, save for my 1.5 mile jog, so this morning before work, I got out all my old prom dressed and my maid of honor dress, and I played dress-up. I did my make-up for work and pulled my hair up so the curls would frame my face and give me a curl tiara, and I put on the royal blue dress from my junior prom. I remember the looks of admiration I got in that, and the reaction of a certain popular boy in AP Chem when he was looking at the pictures. I felt a little better. After a few more dresses, I put on the red dress. I even got out my old prom jewelry, the rhinestone necklace that comes to a v at my neck, and matching earrings. I remembered why I had my not so modest moments. I am the only one who sees the real princess because I don't go that far in dress up around other people. It's not the same that way.
Maybe I should take off for a few days, go visit one of my friends I haven't seen in a while. Someone in my situation, graduated, working, and also needing to run away. Any takers?