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it seems I forgot to update yesterday. I spent a long time talking with my mom about a lot of the things that I would love to write down here. About how my administration doesn't seem to understand how early childhood education works. About how I really feel that I'm failing these kids. About how I'm expecting too much from them.
I've done some soul searching during those conversations. And I've discovered that I've really lost sight of what this is all about. What teaching is supposed to be for. For the kids. My training at TCNJ really helped shape me into the teacher that I wanted to be. I knew I wasn't perfect. But I was working on it. I feel like I've lost sight of that person. I've lost sight of what's really important to the children. Just teaching material the way my administrators want is not the way to go about this. And as much as I'm afraid to go against them, I need to do this for the children and not for myself or for the administrators. If they want to criticize me and penalize me for doing things that I think are right for these children, fine. But this is going to change. I'm not going to be afraid anymore. I'm going to do what's right for the kids. And I guess that means I'm going to have to sacrifice more time and a bit more of myself that I have been giving the last few weeks. I said in my last message that I can't give up myself as a person and I can't forget that I come first. So I need to set a schedule for myself at some point and figure out how to work on what i need to do at home and work on how to be a better teacher.
What do I need to accomplish now? Well there is a lot to be done. First thing, I really need to evaluate where these kids are and what they know and what they don't know. But not just using the evaluation tools that my administration wants me to use. I need to know if students know their colors or know how to use a pair of scissors or read a lot at home. I need to sit down and get to know each one of my 27 students. Because that was one of my faults from last year, that I didn't know my kids.
that's it for now. I gotta go back to my workshop. But I will definitely update this later.
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I've done some soul searching during those conversations. And I've discovered that I've really lost sight of what this is all about. What teaching is supposed to be for. For the kids. My training at TCNJ really helped shape me into the teacher that I wanted to be. I knew I wasn't perfect. But I was working on it. I feel like I've lost sight of that person. I've lost sight of what's really important to the children. Just teaching material the way my administrators want is not the way to go about this. And as much as I'm afraid to go against them, I need to do this for the children and not for myself or for the administrators. If they want to criticize me and penalize me for doing things that I think are right for these children, fine. But this is going to change. I'm not going to be afraid anymore. I'm going to do what's right for the kids. And I guess that means I'm going to have to sacrifice more time and a bit more of myself that I have been giving the last few weeks. I said in my last message that I can't give up myself as a person and I can't forget that I come first. So I need to set a schedule for myself at some point and figure out how to work on what i need to do at home and work on how to be a better teacher.
What do I need to accomplish now? Well there is a lot to be done. First thing, I really need to evaluate where these kids are and what they know and what they don't know. But not just using the evaluation tools that my administration wants me to use. I need to know if students know their colors or know how to use a pair of scissors or read a lot at home. I need to sit down and get to know each one of my 27 students. Because that was one of my faults from last year, that I didn't know my kids.
that's it for now. I gotta go back to my workshop. But I will definitely update this later.
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