:P
Evenings are better than mornings, I don't deny that....
It's the same pattern every day. I wake up feeling wretched, sit in the car for ten minutes before going into the store (wondering if I'm going to make it through the day without either crying or cursing at someone), make it through said day without doing said crazy things, come home in a grouchy mood, gradually slip out of it (with occasional bouts of anxiety/irritability still cropping up), go to bed feeling decent if somewhat nervous still, and wake up and start the whole cycle again.
Anyway...this evening was pretty good. Turned out I had a paycheck I wasn't expecting yet, which means we're up by $300 more than I'd anticipated. Bought stuff for Jessica's birthday (Jessica is my sister Beth's boyfriend Brian's daughter, hopefully she'll be my niece someday) at work. Came home. Found out David is officially off Depakote (and onto Lamyctol - the good stuff). Observed that David had done the dishes and taken out the trash. Went with David to deposit check. Went to Kroger to buy snacks for the trip. Bought some Bacardi silver (strawberry flavor) to celebrate David's being able to (since he's off Depakote) plus his having been so productive today in terms of packing, cleaning up, etc. Came home. Each had one drink and some yogurt-covered pretzels while watching Fawlty Towers. David went to bed. I stayed up working on a website for a customer and getting ready for the trip tomorrow.
We're going to be in Knoxville visiting his dad for the next few days. On the way home, we're going to hit Kentucky Down Under, a nature/animal Australian park in...yes...Kentucky. It's awesome - I've been there once before, years ago, and I've wanted to go back for a long time. I've wanted to take David there for a couple years now, so I thought this'd be a good opportunity since it's only like 0.12 miles from the highway we'll be coming home on. So that is my treat for myself, and the last of my birthday money. Hooray!
Hopefully turtles_path is right and I just need a change of scene, a break from the usual. I'd love to think so. It'd be great to come back home feeling good - or even just hopeful.
G'night. See you in a few days.
It's the same pattern every day. I wake up feeling wretched, sit in the car for ten minutes before going into the store (wondering if I'm going to make it through the day without either crying or cursing at someone), make it through said day without doing said crazy things, come home in a grouchy mood, gradually slip out of it (with occasional bouts of anxiety/irritability still cropping up), go to bed feeling decent if somewhat nervous still, and wake up and start the whole cycle again.
Anyway...this evening was pretty good. Turned out I had a paycheck I wasn't expecting yet, which means we're up by $300 more than I'd anticipated. Bought stuff for Jessica's birthday (Jessica is my sister Beth's boyfriend Brian's daughter, hopefully she'll be my niece someday) at work. Came home. Found out David is officially off Depakote (and onto Lamyctol - the good stuff). Observed that David had done the dishes and taken out the trash. Went with David to deposit check. Went to Kroger to buy snacks for the trip. Bought some Bacardi silver (strawberry flavor) to celebrate David's being able to (since he's off Depakote) plus his having been so productive today in terms of packing, cleaning up, etc. Came home. Each had one drink and some yogurt-covered pretzels while watching Fawlty Towers. David went to bed. I stayed up working on a website for a customer and getting ready for the trip tomorrow.
We're going to be in Knoxville visiting his dad for the next few days. On the way home, we're going to hit Kentucky Down Under, a nature/animal Australian park in...yes...Kentucky. It's awesome - I've been there once before, years ago, and I've wanted to go back for a long time. I've wanted to take David there for a couple years now, so I thought this'd be a good opportunity since it's only like 0.12 miles from the highway we'll be coming home on. So that is my treat for myself, and the last of my birthday money. Hooray!
Hopefully turtles_path is right and I just need a change of scene, a break from the usual. I'd love to think so. It'd be great to come back home feeling good - or even just hopeful.
G'night. See you in a few days.