You know, I'm kinda torn on how to respond to this. On the one hand, I totally understand the need to take a break. I go through periods where I feel like I write about the same thing over and over again to the point where sometimes I feel like I should post 'same shit, different day' just to save people the hassle of reading anything or save myself the trouble of being repetitive because I feel like I bitch about the same things over and over again.
On the other hand, I miss seeing you post here. Sadly, LJ makes up a very large percentage of the time I spend socializing and a lot of that socialization is not very interactive because I read my flist, but I don't comment as often as I should. Still, it makes me feel like I'm a small part of other people's lives. If you think I need a break from hearing about your life, you're wrong. It may sound like I have a lot on my plate, but I don't, really. And if you want to know the truth, I could use an extra helping of adult interaction so please don't think that you're any type of burden. I know the feeling of not wanting to pile your problems on top of someone else's because you think it's selfish - but that's what friends are for. There are times when you really just don't want to talk about it and that's okay too. I guess what I'm saying is just don't close down completely.
If you want to just post about fun, different or unusual happpenings for now that's alright. But don't be afraid to throw a rant in there if you really feel the need for one. We all need to vent and sometimes doing it here is just as good as anything.
I think that's kind of what this post was....a rant. Getting out of town this weekend helped to put some things into perspective. Maybe having some drive and think time helped. As I was leaving town after being at your place, a lot of things seemed to become a little clearer. Apparently my helping of toddler and infant interaction helped? LOL. Most of my life is about work right and then about home with Mom. Work is getting muddier every day. While I like some of my co-workers, others (some who I considered friends that I told private stuff too) walk by me saying little or nothing anymore. There are many days that I wonder why I went back there to the same building. Too many memories lurk there. I mainly stay there for the paycheck and good benefits. Home getting worse and worse too. We will likely be moving soon due to various issues and trying to clear that all up is nuts too. I've been working so hard that stress has started to muddle my brain. I agree we need to vent but it just seemed lately that it wasn't helping and almost making things worse. I'm happy for the great things happening in both of your lives and knowing two great ladies and the details of everyday life. Some days I just can't help thinking about how to get the things I want and how I can get from point A to point B. I just feel very stuck at point A some days to the point that I'm several feet under at point A. It starts to mess with your brain. I kinda miss posting here too.
BTW...a funny postscript to this weekend. Last night, Mom couldn't sleep and she was up. Apparently she heard me talking in my sleep to went to see what was up. She thought I was running in my dream. I said one name in my sleep, "Sassy." I think I was running after her, but I don't remember anything about it. I had to laugh.
On the other hand, I miss seeing you post here. Sadly, LJ makes up a very large percentage of the time I spend socializing and a lot of that socialization is not very interactive because I read my flist, but I don't comment as often as I should. Still, it makes me feel like I'm a small part of other people's lives. If you think I need a break from hearing about your life, you're wrong. It may sound like I have a lot on my plate, but I don't, really. And if you want to know the truth, I could use an extra helping of adult interaction so please don't think that you're any type of burden. I know the feeling of not wanting to pile your problems on top of someone else's because you think it's selfish - but that's what friends are for. There are times when you really just don't want to talk about it and that's okay too. I guess what I'm saying is just don't close down completely.
If you want to just post about fun, different or unusual happpenings for now that's alright. But don't be afraid to throw a rant in there if you really feel the need for one. We all need to vent and sometimes doing it here is just as good as anything.
*hugs*
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BTW...a funny postscript to this weekend. Last night, Mom couldn't sleep and she was up. Apparently she heard me talking in my sleep to went to see what was up. She thought I was running in my dream. I said one name in my sleep, "Sassy." I think I was running after her, but I don't remember anything about it. I had to laugh.
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