Eyes in the Stratusphere
Hmm. I guess I should post something. Everyone else has. XD Plus I seem to be in the mood to just spill. Spill what you ask? I don't know. :D
I are bored, and I'm listening to very random music. hehehe. But now that I'm home from work I feel better. Apparently it was just one of those really stupid days.
I'm proud of myself though. I have a new quest to be calmer, more positive person, especially at work. (Lord knows that doing it at home will be next to impossible but I'm trying.) And for about a week or two I have been successful in my quest to attain a more positive attitude. yay me! *claps* It's been hard, I won't lie. I'm not a very positive person and I get mad really easy. So it's been a trek up a sheer cliff face for the most part, but hey, I've managed it. I'm damn proud of that. Not only that, but I don't seem to angsting over things like I normally would. This is awesome and I'm so happy about it. I just want to be a better person. I want to be the person that Celine thinks I am. (I swear, she thinks I'm some kind of saint...and I keep wondering when she'll discover the truth. >_< )
Today really tested me and I did get to the point where I lost it. But one day out of about two weeks isn't bad. *gives herself a ribbon* So I won't even bother to dwell on it too much. But I will say this. Work has not been easy. I was put in this department to make it better and just when I was accomplishing that we had a major stop sale. To add insult to injury, we had a systems crash all day yesterday. So everything I have worked so hard for has just collapsed. Seriously. I got it to the point that everything was pretty and we would do somewhere in the range of 5000 in just department 52 (that's actual furniture pieces) on a Saturday. This weekend, we did only 2000 on Saturday and 300 on Sunday. That is sad. Very very sad and even though I've kicked some butt getting the department back to where it should have been before David left...and I'm hoping that it's not going to reflect badly on me now that the world seems to be working against me. I am graded on the stupidest thing ever...how many instant credits I get and I can't get any right now because no one is buying anything. The higher ups are seriously going to ask why some of us are DS's if we can't sell instant credit. That's kind of a terrifying thought after all the work I've done. *sighs*
I was supposed to get my review today and didn't, and I'm kind of afraid of what's going to be said. probably more of the same from all the previous years but there's a lot more that I'm afraid of having done wrong. I worry too much. That's something I have to stop as well. *sighs again*
So lets see...oh! I got my PSP moded and I should have it back tomorrow. Ben is setting me up with all sorts of coolness. You have no idea how awkward it is to drop of my handheld to his wife. *sings* Awkward... @_@ She hates video games for those that don't know and purges all of Ben's every now and then. Which is partially understandable and partially OH NOES!!!! hehehe. XD Plus I sometimes wonder if she hates me for getting him all into this stuff. He gets into it on his own but when I get into it, he gets more into it because he has someone to share it with. XD So yeah...that was one of those fidgety moments. hehe.
And then there's the cruise coming up. End of this month. So I might as well say it now. I'M SCARED TO DEATH! XD I hate flying and after flying to Oregon then I have to get on a boat. O_O This should be very interesting. I'm also very very excited. This is going to be fun and I'm going to force myself to go out and do stuff even if I'm sick as a dog. I don't want to miss anything. :)
I can take my laptop if I want but I'm not thinking I will. It would be nice to not have to wait for one of the ships computers but I don't want anything to happen to IRIS. I'd just die if she got broken or stolen. So I think she'll stay home. I can bring my phone as well. They say I can receive text messages and calls on the ship but they'll be roaming. Now I can understand the calls. But can text messages be billed as roaming? That seemed really odd to me. Anyone know?
Lessee....uh I think that's about it for the moment. moving drama can wait until I get through the cruise drama. XD That's too much drama at one time. hehe. But my first step is to purge massive amounts of clothes. I have to move down to just one closet and one dresser. I can't fit more than that. you'd think that after all this time I'd be a master of living in a tiny space....but noooo. XD I just cram as much as possible into the space given to me. hehe.
Okay. Time to feed the animals. Ta for now.
I are bored, and I'm listening to very random music. hehehe. But now that I'm home from work I feel better. Apparently it was just one of those really stupid days.
I'm proud of myself though. I have a new quest to be calmer, more positive person, especially at work. (Lord knows that doing it at home will be next to impossible but I'm trying.) And for about a week or two I have been successful in my quest to attain a more positive attitude. yay me! *claps* It's been hard, I won't lie. I'm not a very positive person and I get mad really easy. So it's been a trek up a sheer cliff face for the most part, but hey, I've managed it. I'm damn proud of that. Not only that, but I don't seem to angsting over things like I normally would. This is awesome and I'm so happy about it. I just want to be a better person. I want to be the person that Celine thinks I am. (I swear, she thinks I'm some kind of saint...and I keep wondering when she'll discover the truth. >_< )
Today really tested me and I did get to the point where I lost it. But one day out of about two weeks isn't bad. *gives herself a ribbon* So I won't even bother to dwell on it too much. But I will say this. Work has not been easy. I was put in this department to make it better and just when I was accomplishing that we had a major stop sale. To add insult to injury, we had a systems crash all day yesterday. So everything I have worked so hard for has just collapsed. Seriously. I got it to the point that everything was pretty and we would do somewhere in the range of 5000 in just department 52 (that's actual furniture pieces) on a Saturday. This weekend, we did only 2000 on Saturday and 300 on Sunday. That is sad. Very very sad and even though I've kicked some butt getting the department back to where it should have been before David left...and I'm hoping that it's not going to reflect badly on me now that the world seems to be working against me. I am graded on the stupidest thing ever...how many instant credits I get and I can't get any right now because no one is buying anything. The higher ups are seriously going to ask why some of us are DS's if we can't sell instant credit. That's kind of a terrifying thought after all the work I've done. *sighs*
I was supposed to get my review today and didn't, and I'm kind of afraid of what's going to be said. probably more of the same from all the previous years but there's a lot more that I'm afraid of having done wrong. I worry too much. That's something I have to stop as well. *sighs again*
So lets see...oh! I got my PSP moded and I should have it back tomorrow. Ben is setting me up with all sorts of coolness. You have no idea how awkward it is to drop of my handheld to his wife. *sings* Awkward... @_@ She hates video games for those that don't know and purges all of Ben's every now and then. Which is partially understandable and partially OH NOES!!!! hehehe. XD Plus I sometimes wonder if she hates me for getting him all into this stuff. He gets into it on his own but when I get into it, he gets more into it because he has someone to share it with. XD So yeah...that was one of those fidgety moments. hehe.
And then there's the cruise coming up. End of this month. So I might as well say it now. I'M SCARED TO DEATH! XD I hate flying and after flying to Oregon then I have to get on a boat. O_O This should be very interesting. I'm also very very excited. This is going to be fun and I'm going to force myself to go out and do stuff even if I'm sick as a dog. I don't want to miss anything. :)
I can take my laptop if I want but I'm not thinking I will. It would be nice to not have to wait for one of the ships computers but I don't want anything to happen to IRIS. I'd just die if she got broken or stolen. So I think she'll stay home. I can bring my phone as well. They say I can receive text messages and calls on the ship but they'll be roaming. Now I can understand the calls. But can text messages be billed as roaming? That seemed really odd to me. Anyone know?
Lessee....uh I think that's about it for the moment. moving drama can wait until I get through the cruise drama. XD That's too much drama at one time. hehe. But my first step is to purge massive amounts of clothes. I have to move down to just one closet and one dresser. I can't fit more than that. you'd think that after all this time I'd be a master of living in a tiny space....but noooo. XD I just cram as much as possible into the space given to me. hehe.
Okay. Time to feed the animals. Ta for now.