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This is going to be a long week, very fucking long week. On top of all the usuals, I got a project proposal for 370 and then the GREs.
Speaking of which. I am kinda freaking out a fuck ton right now. I walk around constantly with this nasty cold lump of worry in my stomach. And it is eating away at my calm and my ability to deal with life and all the shit it throws at me. And I wish I could say that this lump will go away on Thursday, but I doubt it. The worry is more what the fuck do I do if I don't get into grad school. I am not even sure what i can do at that point. I will probably have to leave the country. At that point the only way I can get to stay is to get a job here and I am not sure who would hire me since there are so many hoops to jump through with immigration and such. Which reminds me I should probably apply for NTNU as well as all the other schools I am looking at. The list so far is
RPI
RIT
WPI
UNM
Northeastern
and last but certainly not least UMass (I would really like to stay in the valley)
Speaking of which. I am kinda freaking out a fuck ton right now. I walk around constantly with this nasty cold lump of worry in my stomach. And it is eating away at my calm and my ability to deal with life and all the shit it throws at me. And I wish I could say that this lump will go away on Thursday, but I doubt it. The worry is more what the fuck do I do if I don't get into grad school. I am not even sure what i can do at that point. I will probably have to leave the country. At that point the only way I can get to stay is to get a job here and I am not sure who would hire me since there are so many hoops to jump through with immigration and such. Which reminds me I should probably apply for NTNU as well as all the other schools I am looking at. The list so far is
RPI
RIT
WPI
UNM
Northeastern
and last but certainly not least UMass (I would really like to stay in the valley)