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You Are a Norwegian Forest Cat
You are both athletic and adventurous.
You dream of climbing the highest mountain and surfing the biggest waves.
While you are active and spirited, you are also sweet and cuddly.
You're very family oriented, and you love to be around people.
What Breed of Cat Are You?
In other news, life is slowly getting better. I really need this break and it will probably do me good to get off campus, and not be totally isolated from people as have happened in the past. I think I have told most of you of my first thanksgiving when I was going insane. But yeah, it is getting better. Thank you all so much for those little signs of love that you showed me. Rest seems to be doing wonders, yet last night I was not able to go to bed until 3 am. Or I was in bed and ready to go to sleep, but the nice foggy feeling of sleep did not come until after 3. I was thinking about friendships that probably are lost (mainly thanks to me being fucking stupid), general stupidity of mine, my grades and gpa, fretting about gradschool (Kelly and I talked yesterday and she agreed with me that I have to give up my life long dream of going to MiT), freaking out about my assembly project, being pissed about the part of Ramon's costume that have not arroved yet and then quiet mourning of friendships. I know it was the tiredness talking, but I really felt like a failure. Now that I am slightly more rested and it is a brand new day (not a bad Sting song, btw, just a very weird vid) I am calmer. I will try to salvage what I can and then sigh and say good bye to the rest.
Pride and hopes never taste good when you have to swallow them. But some times we have to. It's been more common than I like in the last few years. But then I look at the adventure I have had in the same years. I could have stayed at home and never had to swallow my pride. But I didn't. I got out. "I am a leaf on the wind... watch how I soar" A leaf in the wind is a little bit too good of an discription of how I live my life. I go were the wind blows me. I ended up in Flekke mostly by others doing (I really wanted to go to Italy or Wales instead). On a whim I did an interveiw for Smith as a warm up for Colby. I was lucky enough to get Sid as an interveiwer and we hit it off well. It was pure accident that Neodude and I ended up tallking about early decicion and he dared me to apply ED. It was the toss of a coin that led me to apply to Smith and not to Colby. If it hadn't been for my pre-major advisor I probably wouldn't have fucked up my courses for the engineering major. And then I wouldn't have been a cs major.... and the list goes on like that... The wind blew me halfway across the world. I wonder where it will blow me next. Will I stay in the US? Will I go home to Europe? Or will I end up even further from home?
You must go, follow your star
No matter where you go, there you are
No matter where you go, there are you
So don't let go of what you know to be true
Todo:
-German class
-Laundery
-Lab for csc262
-Assembly class
-Norwegian with Trudy
-Norwegian with Andy
-Salvage
-Complain on Etsy
-Start packing
Before I leave Wednesday morning
-Change bedlinnens
-Buy a bottle of wine for Claire's family
-Clean out fridge
-Clean room a little
-Call home