Jun 26, 2007 14:58
I'm proud of myself. I'm so ready for this to happen. I want it to happen so badly. I think it might actually happen. If it didn't happen, I think it would be devastating at this point. This is exactly what I needed to finish it off with that loser. The hope and the real possibility for another boy is exactly what I've been waiting for. I really need this to happen.
I have a question though and any responses are welcome.
Background story:
I met this kid through a friend in my calculus class. The boy recently broke up with a girlfriend and the day after he broke up with her, we were hanging out and he tells me, "So... I just broke up with Alex... Just thought you should know." First of all, I don't know Alex so it seems out of the question that this remark was directed to mean that I should avoid her for a few days. Secondly, is that supposed to be a hint?
Last night:
After class, a small group of us always go out for ice cream together. I was giving him a ride home last night so the three of us when to his house i Newburyport. It was fun, we talked, he showed us around his house. An hour after I left, I was lying in bed and I got a text message saying, "That was fun! I can't wait for class to end but I'm gonna miss hanging out with you and matthias."
Question:
This is good, right? This means he's still thinking about me after I leave, right? I don't mean to be annoying and read into things too much but it's just so hard not to. I feel like adding his friend's name in there after mine was just trying not to let on. I do the same thing when I'm trying not to let people think I'm too interested. I think I'm reading into this too hard. Whenever he's in the back seat of my car (which oddly feels like all the time), I catch him watching me singing in my rear view mirror. When I had to leave early while we were all hanging out last week, he got kinda bummed out that I had to go. Do these things mean anything or am I being an idiot??? I think I want this to happen too much.