I hate this thing.
I always forget about this thing and I actually hate using it so I'm thinking it would be worthwhile to delete the account, but then I wouldn't be able to read Matt's cryptic messages anymore.
The Gaggle has officially been pushed out of my life. Every single one of them. I put them all on my limited profile on facebook and I never respond to any of them. I hate them. Especially Nicole. She's fake and rude and incredibly stupid and I don't know why I didn't see it sooner. I put so much effort into trying to fix that friendship and I hate myself for it cuz I don't know why I wanted it to work. I was never as important as fucking her ugly disgusting rude obnoxious dim-witted boyfriend. Natalie is a psycho. Brianna is a follower. Liz makes painfully poor decisions. And Steph is two-faced. She's nice to your face but when she's around the Gaggle she can't be bothered to say hello. No matter how hard I may have worked to be friends with them, it was always about the 5 of them and no one else could ever be as important to them and they were to themselves. And I hate how two-faced Bob was with them where one day he would talk so much shit about them cuz he knew it was what I wanted to hear but once we broke up he was hanging out with them all the time again. They are the kind of friends that put on a show of what they think good friends should be, but they aren't actually good friends because they don't ever REALLY care about anyone other than themselves. This is why they all get along so well because they are all exactly the same. For example, Christian breaks up with Steph so everyone goes over there and buys her ice cream cuz that's what they see in the movies so therefore it MUST be the right way to handle this situation, but two weeks later when Ryan breaks up with Natalie, suddenly Steph's break up is old news and now everyone MUST pay full attention to Natalie even though Steph is still heartbroken. If I was on my death bed, they would all come to see me just because they think that's what they're suppposed to do. If that ever happened I would call security on them and get restraining orders because the last thing I ever need in my time of need would be a bunch of two-faced whores. They weren't there when I needed them before and I learned that I don't really need them afterall because they aren't worth the oxygen. I'm really excited to not have them in my life next semester.
Anyways. My friends from home are exponentially better. Even when we're fighting with each other, they're better. Because they're better people. Even though Mary and I aren't getting along very well lately and her new college attitude is a little questionable, I still think she's a better person than the whole Gaggle combined. It's sort of weird how much thinking about the Gaggle still upsets me. They're all just so fucked up.
And now for a rant about the bitch herself: Nicole.
She would constantly tell me that I was one of her closest friends at Clark but whenever she needed someone, did I get a phone call? No. When she planned a fun night with the girls, did I get a call? No. I can't even count the number of times she singled me out and then she would tell me, "I try so hard to be inclusive and you just make me feel like because I fucked up once that you'll never forgive me." She tried to pin it on me cuz she was a bad friend. When I told her that her boyfriend was an ass, instead of listening to me and taking my warning, she just played the passive Disney princess and let him take advantage of her. Good for you, guys. In the end, Nicole will be crushed when Ben does something so incredibly painfully stupid because she let herself get in too deep without listening to what people were telling her. And I will laugh in her face if she tries to come to me. She always said, "I know he's not 'the one' but it's still fun, right?" I don't think it gets bitchier than that. In one of my many attempts to make our friendship better, I asked her to meet me at my room at a certain time and she came in 20 minutes late, tossing her fucked up hair over her shoulder and saying, "Sorry, I just had sex on top for the first time." I should have kicked her out and told her never to speak to me again. "We're in love," she said. She doesn't know what love is. Her own family abused her! Her sister beat the shit out of her and her mother gave her a fucking eating disorder. She doesn't know what love is. God forbid that I should ever speak my mind to her because she would only be shocked with everything that came out of my mouth. She's sheltered and idiotic and isn't worth the oxygen she breathes. She treats people like shit and hardly realizes she's doing it, which is a million times worse than the kind of person who realizes it. It just comes so naturally to her. I hate her.
The Gaggle has officially been pushed out of my life. Every single one of them. I put them all on my limited profile on facebook and I never respond to any of them. I hate them. Especially Nicole. She's fake and rude and incredibly stupid and I don't know why I didn't see it sooner. I put so much effort into trying to fix that friendship and I hate myself for it cuz I don't know why I wanted it to work. I was never as important as fucking her ugly disgusting rude obnoxious dim-witted boyfriend. Natalie is a psycho. Brianna is a follower. Liz makes painfully poor decisions. And Steph is two-faced. She's nice to your face but when she's around the Gaggle she can't be bothered to say hello. No matter how hard I may have worked to be friends with them, it was always about the 5 of them and no one else could ever be as important to them and they were to themselves. And I hate how two-faced Bob was with them where one day he would talk so much shit about them cuz he knew it was what I wanted to hear but once we broke up he was hanging out with them all the time again. They are the kind of friends that put on a show of what they think good friends should be, but they aren't actually good friends because they don't ever REALLY care about anyone other than themselves. This is why they all get along so well because they are all exactly the same. For example, Christian breaks up with Steph so everyone goes over there and buys her ice cream cuz that's what they see in the movies so therefore it MUST be the right way to handle this situation, but two weeks later when Ryan breaks up with Natalie, suddenly Steph's break up is old news and now everyone MUST pay full attention to Natalie even though Steph is still heartbroken. If I was on my death bed, they would all come to see me just because they think that's what they're suppposed to do. If that ever happened I would call security on them and get restraining orders because the last thing I ever need in my time of need would be a bunch of two-faced whores. They weren't there when I needed them before and I learned that I don't really need them afterall because they aren't worth the oxygen. I'm really excited to not have them in my life next semester.
Anyways. My friends from home are exponentially better. Even when we're fighting with each other, they're better. Because they're better people. Even though Mary and I aren't getting along very well lately and her new college attitude is a little questionable, I still think she's a better person than the whole Gaggle combined. It's sort of weird how much thinking about the Gaggle still upsets me. They're all just so fucked up.
And now for a rant about the bitch herself: Nicole.
She would constantly tell me that I was one of her closest friends at Clark but whenever she needed someone, did I get a phone call? No. When she planned a fun night with the girls, did I get a call? No. I can't even count the number of times she singled me out and then she would tell me, "I try so hard to be inclusive and you just make me feel like because I fucked up once that you'll never forgive me." She tried to pin it on me cuz she was a bad friend. When I told her that her boyfriend was an ass, instead of listening to me and taking my warning, she just played the passive Disney princess and let him take advantage of her. Good for you, guys. In the end, Nicole will be crushed when Ben does something so incredibly painfully stupid because she let herself get in too deep without listening to what people were telling her. And I will laugh in her face if she tries to come to me. She always said, "I know he's not 'the one' but it's still fun, right?" I don't think it gets bitchier than that. In one of my many attempts to make our friendship better, I asked her to meet me at my room at a certain time and she came in 20 minutes late, tossing her fucked up hair over her shoulder and saying, "Sorry, I just had sex on top for the first time." I should have kicked her out and told her never to speak to me again. "We're in love," she said. She doesn't know what love is. Her own family abused her! Her sister beat the shit out of her and her mother gave her a fucking eating disorder. She doesn't know what love is. God forbid that I should ever speak my mind to her because she would only be shocked with everything that came out of my mouth. She's sheltered and idiotic and isn't worth the oxygen she breathes. She treats people like shit and hardly realizes she's doing it, which is a million times worse than the kind of person who realizes it. It just comes so naturally to her. I hate her.