Past relationship
As I was thinking about what I just wrote, I mentioned the fact that I had been abused in a past relationship. Many don't know the story of what happened to me about 2 years ago... this is also the reason why I am so paranoid around guys.
Well, 3 years ago one of my best guy friends asked me to be his girlfriend (of course I said yes because he had been so kind to me prior to our relationship). Anyway... things started out great in the beginning, but they quickly turned for the worse. He would constantly tell me that I was just another worthless piece of shit and that I was lucky to have him because no other guy would ever come near me. He then forced me to stop hanging out with my friends and he would throw a fit if he found out that I talked to any of them (especially guys). The verbal and emotional abuse continued until I got to the point where I could have easily killed myself if he wanted me to. My friend, Judy, and some of my family members found out what was going one between me and the guy. They tried talking sense into me, but I just wouldn't listen to them. Finally, one day I had a Geshtalt moment and realized how he had been treating me. Later that night, when I met him to go to his house, he hit me because I confronted him about it. Well, luckily to say, I got out of that relationship and have now been rid of him for about 1 1/2 years.
I just can't believe that I stayed with him for that long of a time and was so blind to the way he was treating me (I was with him for a year). I always used to tell myself that I would never get myself into that kind of situation, but I guess I was wrong. I learned that you can't say that you would never do something to get yourself into that position or say that you would be able to get out of that type of situation. You never know how you are going to act or behave until you are in that type of situation.
I am finally doing great because of my friends and family. This situation really opened my eyes to my life and things around me. I think now that I am finally ready to try the whole dating thing again, and hopefully, it will be much better. I am much stronger now and I'm pretty sure that I would be able to get out of that type of situation again if it every happened to me again because I have been there and know that it is not right to treat somebody that way. So, I am looking forward to college... yet another reason of how I will be starting my life over (it is like getting a second chance at life... yes, I know that sounds odd, but you'd only understand if you were in my place).
Well, 3 years ago one of my best guy friends asked me to be his girlfriend (of course I said yes because he had been so kind to me prior to our relationship). Anyway... things started out great in the beginning, but they quickly turned for the worse. He would constantly tell me that I was just another worthless piece of shit and that I was lucky to have him because no other guy would ever come near me. He then forced me to stop hanging out with my friends and he would throw a fit if he found out that I talked to any of them (especially guys). The verbal and emotional abuse continued until I got to the point where I could have easily killed myself if he wanted me to. My friend, Judy, and some of my family members found out what was going one between me and the guy. They tried talking sense into me, but I just wouldn't listen to them. Finally, one day I had a Geshtalt moment and realized how he had been treating me. Later that night, when I met him to go to his house, he hit me because I confronted him about it. Well, luckily to say, I got out of that relationship and have now been rid of him for about 1 1/2 years.
I just can't believe that I stayed with him for that long of a time and was so blind to the way he was treating me (I was with him for a year). I always used to tell myself that I would never get myself into that kind of situation, but I guess I was wrong. I learned that you can't say that you would never do something to get yourself into that position or say that you would be able to get out of that type of situation. You never know how you are going to act or behave until you are in that type of situation.
I am finally doing great because of my friends and family. This situation really opened my eyes to my life and things around me. I think now that I am finally ready to try the whole dating thing again, and hopefully, it will be much better. I am much stronger now and I'm pretty sure that I would be able to get out of that type of situation again if it every happened to me again because I have been there and know that it is not right to treat somebody that way. So, I am looking forward to college... yet another reason of how I will be starting my life over (it is like getting a second chance at life... yes, I know that sounds odd, but you'd only understand if you were in my place).