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So... Edgar's engaged. This is wonderful news, even though I think quite a few of us saw it coming from a mile away.
I'm very happy for both Edgar and Terra, the looks on their faces when I found them were stunningly beautiful.
All in all, the whole event went well, I thought. I'm just glad I don't have to wear those clothes until... well, until Edgar decides to throw another formal party again.
I'm happy for them, I really am. They're in love, and Terra will take care of him.
But... it's resentment, or jealousy, or something that I feel. Something keeps telling me to be upset because she's taking him away from me... now there's going to be someone closer to him than me.
In fact, that's exactly it. Even those ten years that we were apart, we were still closer to each other than anyone else. I could always feel him there, and sometimes... sometimes just knowing that he was there was the only thing that kept me going.
But now... am I going to lose that?
I don't know how these things work, but now Terra will be the most important person in his life. It's not like I can't take care of myself, because obviously I can, but... I don't want to lose that connection between us. It almost killed me once, what will it do to me this time around?
I don't really want to think about this, and I definitely don't want to bring it up. I owe Edgar everything. Everything. Gladly, I would die for him, not even a second thought. I know that much.
He gave me freedom once. Now, it's the least I can do to let go of the bond and give him what I can.
And to top it all off, that earthquake still has me a little edgy, I think. So please excuse me if I'm a little off for the next couple of days.
I'm very happy for both Edgar and Terra, the looks on their faces when I found them were stunningly beautiful.
All in all, the whole event went well, I thought. I'm just glad I don't have to wear those clothes until... well, until Edgar decides to throw another formal party again.
I'm happy for them, I really am. They're in love, and Terra will take care of him.
But... it's resentment, or jealousy, or something that I feel. Something keeps telling me to be upset because she's taking him away from me... now there's going to be someone closer to him than me.
In fact, that's exactly it. Even those ten years that we were apart, we were still closer to each other than anyone else. I could always feel him there, and sometimes... sometimes just knowing that he was there was the only thing that kept me going.
But now... am I going to lose that?
I don't know how these things work, but now Terra will be the most important person in his life. It's not like I can't take care of myself, because obviously I can, but... I don't want to lose that connection between us. It almost killed me once, what will it do to me this time around?
I don't really want to think about this, and I definitely don't want to bring it up. I owe Edgar everything. Everything. Gladly, I would die for him, not even a second thought. I know that much.
He gave me freedom once. Now, it's the least I can do to let go of the bond and give him what I can.
And to top it all off, that earthquake still has me a little edgy, I think. So please excuse me if I'm a little off for the next couple of days.