Good morning
It has been decided that we WILL fix the car. Went to look at another car yesterday and almost bought it but the guy seemed a bit dodgy to me and the cash machine wouldn't give Jon his money, which we took as an omen of ill fortune. At least we KNOW what is wrong with the VW. For some reason my account has gone overdrawn (I am allowed to be overdrawn and it's only by £9!). I blame the phone bill coming in. But in reality it is just that I bought a few too many things while grocery shopping and at the sewing shop. It is funny that after the discussion on the weekend at Gaia the money issues and my attachment and refuge with them come to the fore. AAAAAAARRRRGH I hate money. Actually I only hate it when I worry there will not be enough to eat and pay the bills and buy stuff that I want (and realistically I don't want that much stuff). It's funny that a number in a bank account (which will change in 5 days to positive) can cause so much suffering. I know it's actually my attachment to the number and all the spiralling of doubt, anxiety and stories that go without. The human condition of the feeling of lack, spiritual angsty lack. Let it go tiger, let it go.... x
I will post some pics of the expanding tiger, when the RS takes some photos of it... The nymph has very kindly offered to do a photoshoot when it is even bigger which will be nice, given her incredible skills regarding photography.
It's awfully grey and overcast here, and I couldn't be arsed to sit today. Does that make me a bad Buddhist? I wil be going to yoga and we have meditation at that, so surely (justifying mind here) that counts. No, actually it doesn't actually count at all does it. Ho hum.
I will post some pics of the expanding tiger, when the RS takes some photos of it... The nymph has very kindly offered to do a photoshoot when it is even bigger which will be nice, given her incredible skills regarding photography.
It's awfully grey and overcast here, and I couldn't be arsed to sit today. Does that make me a bad Buddhist? I wil be going to yoga and we have meditation at that, so surely (justifying mind here) that counts. No, actually it doesn't actually count at all does it. Ho hum.