I think we are a little better today.............
I was able to talk to my cousin last night. Which made me feel a bit better. We talked well after 1 am instant messaging each other. My husband I guess realized I wasn't in the bed yet and when I did get off the computer, he is poking his head out the bedroom door. I don't know what for, as I have no plans on sleeping in our bed tonite. I have been suffering from insomnia for weeks now, and he knows this and of course the other night has made it even worse. So I am up til well after 2am. And he asks me, why am I still up. Duh........I can't sleep. And everytime that I get tired enough to go, my son whines and gets up. Haven't slept a good sleep since this dude was born......and I am very serious and very tired. But I know he just is wanting me back in the room and near him. I am still upset so I can't forgive him for questioning my reason for being in this family. I can't take the emotional upheaval he distrubutes everytime he is upset or insecure. It is too much drama.
Til next time...............