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So everything seems to be going wrong here lately and the one thing that hasn't been going wrong is leaving...
I missed pictures for the yearbook Monday and that really sucks...but I guess it's my fault it just slipped my mind...
Justin has decided to not talk to me anymore til May when he comes home...cuz he wants to know if I'm what he really wants or not or something like that...it sucks and he took it back and tried to talk to me but it just kills me now so I don't know what to do about it...just somethings about him kill me...like the fact that he would ask other people about me without me knowing...when I don't really talk to people about how I feel about him...so they wouldn't know how I feel...
Blake's doing something weird...I didn't think he'd really do it so I didn't worry about it...and now he is and it hurts worse than I thought it would but he seems to be ok...so who knows maybe it's better for him if I just leave him alone too...makes you wonder if I should have ever had anything with either of them at all...if they are better off without me...
Mom's been being all weird toward me...and she's not helping at all with my invitations...I'm trying my hardest to get them finished...but ugh whatever...and Whit...she said we could use our computer and camera...if you still wanna...and I heard about how I could have a graduation party...it would be the Saturday after graduation...a pool party...and Mom said it was up to me...it'd be fun...but it's at the grandmother's that my mom doesn't really get along with so I don't know if I'm going to or not...but if any of ya'll would come let me know and if it's a lot of people I might do it anyway...well not a lot of people but you know...
Well like I said...the one thing that seems to be going right...although it's very slowly...is leaving tomorrow...for five days...if I think about it real hard he's only leaving for three that I would see him if he was here...but anyway...it makes me sad...but then again I think about Justin and Blake and wonder if I should just leave him alone...it might be easier for him that way...who knows...
I missed pictures for the yearbook Monday and that really sucks...but I guess it's my fault it just slipped my mind...
Justin has decided to not talk to me anymore til May when he comes home...cuz he wants to know if I'm what he really wants or not or something like that...it sucks and he took it back and tried to talk to me but it just kills me now so I don't know what to do about it...just somethings about him kill me...like the fact that he would ask other people about me without me knowing...when I don't really talk to people about how I feel about him...so they wouldn't know how I feel...
Blake's doing something weird...I didn't think he'd really do it so I didn't worry about it...and now he is and it hurts worse than I thought it would but he seems to be ok...so who knows maybe it's better for him if I just leave him alone too...makes you wonder if I should have ever had anything with either of them at all...if they are better off without me...
Mom's been being all weird toward me...and she's not helping at all with my invitations...I'm trying my hardest to get them finished...but ugh whatever...and Whit...she said we could use our computer and camera...if you still wanna...and I heard about how I could have a graduation party...it would be the Saturday after graduation...a pool party...and Mom said it was up to me...it'd be fun...but it's at the grandmother's that my mom doesn't really get along with so I don't know if I'm going to or not...but if any of ya'll would come let me know and if it's a lot of people I might do it anyway...well not a lot of people but you know...
Well like I said...the one thing that seems to be going right...although it's very slowly...is leaving tomorrow...for five days...if I think about it real hard he's only leaving for three that I would see him if he was here...but anyway...it makes me sad...but then again I think about Justin and Blake and wonder if I should just leave him alone...it might be easier for him that way...who knows...