What to do, what to do...
Ok so it finally happened...last night around 11:30 it finally happened...I didn't think it would be this way...I wanted to have the conversation that needed to be had for me to say yes before it happened...but I didn't get to have the conversation before it happened...so now I have to have the conversation after it happened...and I don't completely know if they understood why I have to have the conversation...and I think it let them down a little...but I asked if they understood...and I know that if they didn't understand...they will after the conversation...if I can just get the whole conversation out the right way without messing up and without hurting anyone's feelings...but who knows??? Honestly though I think they understood and they still sounded ok but they weren't as excited about it anymore...but there are so many deciding factors involved that I just don't know...I don't want to have to say no...