i don't want to go back v. 2
I’ve had 10 or 12 anxiety dreams in the past two weeks about going back to school. They’re all like THIS IS AWFUL OH MY FUCKING GOD GET ME OUT OF HERE and beyond.
And weird things happen in them. REALLY WEIRD THINGS. Like, in one, my room was a hexagon and I couldn’t fit any furniture in. In another, all my friends ignored me and were wearing surgical masks. And in a last one, my boss for one of my on campus jobs was like “Hey guys, let’s go on a roller coaster!” and I was like “No thanks Sam, I hate roller coasters.” And he was like “WELL INDIA I WILL FIRE YOU IF YOU DON’T GO.” So I endured what felt like an hour long upside roller coaster, screaming the whole way.
I usually wake up fucking depressed and my family is like “What’s wrooooonggg” and I’m like “MY BRAIN IS FUCKING WITH ME.”
This summer has been too amazing to leave behind. I really don’t want it to be over. Honestly, I cannot illustrate this to you, yes YOU DEAR READER, more. Unless I could come face to face with you and shake you and scream I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK.
Then I’d cover myself in lighter fluid, grab a match, burst into flames, and go screaming down the hill. And you’d be like “That is totally why I follow India on tumblr.” *
EMO POST DONE. PROBABLY GOING TO DELETE IN THE MORNING.
*probably wouldn’t happen.