Mama, I'm coming home.
August 30th.
I will be taking my life back to where it should have gone in the first place. Pennsylvania is dead to me.
Things I am looking forward to when I get home:
-Being able to go see any one of my friends any time, without laborious planning to make sure I see everyone before I have to go home.
-Raising my beautiful child around his family and his family's friends, the people who really deserve to watch him grow up.
-Luke being able to have good friends, children with parents who give a shit about them and don't beat them for trying to give them a hug.
-Babysitters who won't leave my son in a jumper in the same diaper I dropped him off in all day.
-Showing my dad that Gabe and I really can be responsible and be in control of our lives.
-Going to Mass with my grandparents again, this time with my son in tow.
-Visiting my old priest at his new church in Cincinnati, and not having to take quite as much time planning the excursion.
-Thai Nine.
-Chipotle.
-Dewey's.
-Eden!
-Being able to participate in Tuesday Night Crew.
-Missall. He's made great strides while I was gone and I deeply regret not being here for him. I'll have forever to make up for it though.
-Jason. Although a lot of people had a hand in pulling me back from the fire back in 2002, his influence was the strongest toward making me the person I am today and I owe him my life for that. I realized recently that I've been lost without him. He is my true best friend and heart's brother and I dearly miss him and look forward to building our friendship back up to where it once was.
-Crystal. Of all the friends from before 2002, she's the one I should have stayed closest with all along.
-Hiking that doesn't involve the possibility of falling off the side of a mountain.
-Cycling that also doesn't involve mountains or the almost certainty of being hit by a car.
-Everyone I see walking down the street not having a retard limp and otherwise looking like the city's water supply actually contains a massive amount of nuclear waste.
-Yes, I do plan on going to see Sonata Arctica and Dragonforce.
-Shelton's, and not missing the 4th next year.
-Shooting range. Nuff said.
-Tornado chasing with Erik. And generally just driving around somewhere north of Huber.
-Sharing the wonderful experience that was my life in Ohio with Gabe, who has had a turbulent life and, unfortunately, a turbulent relationship with me. I really want this move to signal a sort of starting over for us, a wiping clean of the slate that we stupidly started to draw in Pennsylvania. I want him to know peace, and I believe we can do it there. I believe we should have done it there in the first place. He will be far away from his family, though, so I will need everyone's help in making him feel loved and welcome there.
I will miss the people here, because for all their petty bickering and ungratefulness they are good people. We'll go visit, I'm sure, but this time we'll be able to come home to what we really wanted all along.
See you all in three weeks.
I will be taking my life back to where it should have gone in the first place. Pennsylvania is dead to me.
Things I am looking forward to when I get home:
-Being able to go see any one of my friends any time, without laborious planning to make sure I see everyone before I have to go home.
-Raising my beautiful child around his family and his family's friends, the people who really deserve to watch him grow up.
-Luke being able to have good friends, children with parents who give a shit about them and don't beat them for trying to give them a hug.
-Babysitters who won't leave my son in a jumper in the same diaper I dropped him off in all day.
-Showing my dad that Gabe and I really can be responsible and be in control of our lives.
-Going to Mass with my grandparents again, this time with my son in tow.
-Visiting my old priest at his new church in Cincinnati, and not having to take quite as much time planning the excursion.
-Thai Nine.
-Chipotle.
-Dewey's.
-Eden!
-Being able to participate in Tuesday Night Crew.
-Missall. He's made great strides while I was gone and I deeply regret not being here for him. I'll have forever to make up for it though.
-Jason. Although a lot of people had a hand in pulling me back from the fire back in 2002, his influence was the strongest toward making me the person I am today and I owe him my life for that. I realized recently that I've been lost without him. He is my true best friend and heart's brother and I dearly miss him and look forward to building our friendship back up to where it once was.
-Crystal. Of all the friends from before 2002, she's the one I should have stayed closest with all along.
-Hiking that doesn't involve the possibility of falling off the side of a mountain.
-Cycling that also doesn't involve mountains or the almost certainty of being hit by a car.
-Everyone I see walking down the street not having a retard limp and otherwise looking like the city's water supply actually contains a massive amount of nuclear waste.
-Yes, I do plan on going to see Sonata Arctica and Dragonforce.
-Shelton's, and not missing the 4th next year.
-Shooting range. Nuff said.
-Tornado chasing with Erik. And generally just driving around somewhere north of Huber.
-Sharing the wonderful experience that was my life in Ohio with Gabe, who has had a turbulent life and, unfortunately, a turbulent relationship with me. I really want this move to signal a sort of starting over for us, a wiping clean of the slate that we stupidly started to draw in Pennsylvania. I want him to know peace, and I believe we can do it there. I believe we should have done it there in the first place. He will be far away from his family, though, so I will need everyone's help in making him feel loved and welcome there.
I will miss the people here, because for all their petty bickering and ungratefulness they are good people. We'll go visit, I'm sure, but this time we'll be able to come home to what we really wanted all along.
See you all in three weeks.