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i cant do naythign any more. i cant stop thinking about her. i cant stop flirting w/ her anymore. i cant stop and nor do i want 2. my realtionships all suck and i know im bound 2 wander the world alone. the only reall realtionship ive held on to w/ all my might is w/ anistasia, heidi(my sisy), mallory, and thats about it. everyone else im freinds w/ but i odnt hold on to their freind ship like those. i cling to those those are the ppl that have helped me through out everything. i want to say thanks to my bigg sister who has allways been their for me, even when her life isnt so great. i found out that some1 hurt my sister 2day and i wanted 2 kill them. i wanted 2 knock some sense into them and b like you fool my sister loves you to death and you just threw that al l away. i want to hit them and make them se that they are a fucking idiot. i might b just as madd as my sisy but idk. i hate 2 see the ones i lvoe get hurt. i swear if any1 fucks w/ some1 i lvoe and im thir they will go to the hospital once im done w/ them.
i went to the grteek food festival. iwent with this girl names michelle and omg she is soo bangen its crazy. like omg i think i hellof like this gilr but im stuck/. i want to kiss her and just hold ehr..one problem sjhe likes some dude...err. me and brandi havent gone anywhere and i tried 2 show up 2 her sftball games but it didnt work out and now she madd at me. the festival was asome and great ass food. i wanted 2 get recipes but i was busy flirting w/ michelle the hole time. ahh i flirt w/ that gilr 24/7.
basketball is starting finally so ill b wicked busy more than usuall but o well. i need an escape something from keeping me thinking. i dont want to think anymore i just want 2 b like a robot and get into arouteen right now. i hate thinking for right now. i hate it all but i cant do nuttin about it. i hate my job it use to b hellof tight and fun and now i hate it! they can all go screw them slefves at my work except for kat and vince. thats aboiut it. my old place was better and i think i grew up 2 fast. but screw it i just want to prove every body wrong.
i jave my court date on the 28th and im scared shitless but i ownt let no1 see that im scared. i cry my slef to sleep every night for the past month or so. all i do is cry and go through the motions now. im so lonly and im so cold. i dont need a gf or antyhing like that i just need 2 have some1 say everyhting will b ok and that il make it rhough alive. i dont want to go to jail and i dont want to get screwd over. im so scared about everything. and all i can do is cry, i thoguht i was all out of tears 2 cry but every day/night they allways come and i cna never stop themunless i fall asleep . kim getting old and i know im only 16 but i feel like 30. i hate being sick and i hate everything right now.
i started writing as book. its aboiut my life. its going to b my life but im not going to say its my life. so far its good and i like it. i love to write and i odnt care if ppl readit or not. i lvoe to write. my writing allays makes ppl wonder and b like dang yo.
i made up a word 2 day ...
scrotty= layed back, chilled, hang loose
i went to the grteek food festival. iwent with this girl names michelle and omg she is soo bangen its crazy. like omg i think i hellof like this gilr but im stuck/. i want to kiss her and just hold ehr..one problem sjhe likes some dude...err. me and brandi havent gone anywhere and i tried 2 show up 2 her sftball games but it didnt work out and now she madd at me. the festival was asome and great ass food. i wanted 2 get recipes but i was busy flirting w/ michelle the hole time. ahh i flirt w/ that gilr 24/7.
basketball is starting finally so ill b wicked busy more than usuall but o well. i need an escape something from keeping me thinking. i dont want to think anymore i just want 2 b like a robot and get into arouteen right now. i hate thinking for right now. i hate it all but i cant do nuttin about it. i hate my job it use to b hellof tight and fun and now i hate it! they can all go screw them slefves at my work except for kat and vince. thats aboiut it. my old place was better and i think i grew up 2 fast. but screw it i just want to prove every body wrong.
i jave my court date on the 28th and im scared shitless but i ownt let no1 see that im scared. i cry my slef to sleep every night for the past month or so. all i do is cry and go through the motions now. im so lonly and im so cold. i dont need a gf or antyhing like that i just need 2 have some1 say everyhting will b ok and that il make it rhough alive. i dont want to go to jail and i dont want to get screwd over. im so scared about everything. and all i can do is cry, i thoguht i was all out of tears 2 cry but every day/night they allways come and i cna never stop themunless i fall asleep . kim getting old and i know im only 16 but i feel like 30. i hate being sick and i hate everything right now.
i started writing as book. its aboiut my life. its going to b my life but im not going to say its my life. so far its good and i like it. i love to write and i odnt care if ppl readit or not. i lvoe to write. my writing allays makes ppl wonder and b like dang yo.
i made up a word 2 day ...
scrotty= layed back, chilled, hang loose