sux
r and I broke up. and I am depressed and being self destructive in my usual ways, except taht I am really trying to steer clear of suger. I am smoking too much pot...I need to clear my head for awhile. I was thiking about it last night that if I could forgive myself my stupid process it might help me cycle out faster. I think that I may be punishing myself for my part in our breakup, or something. I am sad.