Writer's Block: Pecking Order
I'm so stupidly the youngest by far. Both parents had been married before and all my siblings are half-brothers and half-sisters. And there is a bunch of them... I was spoiled, but of course. But I also felt left behind. Today, one of my sisters is very close to me. We have been this close for five years now, she is 15 years my senior. I never knew what it was like to have a close sibling relationship until then. I cherish it!
Influenced me? My parents were oooold. I should have been born in the early 50ies, not the late 60ies. No wonder I feel as I'm born in the wrong era. ;-)
Both my parents died before I was 20. Yep, that is an influence. Worst thing that can happen has already happened, basically. Nothing can ever make me as sad as I was then. But you survive, I was loved and I will always have that love within me.
I really would not want any one to have the same experience. There are far worse things, I'm well aware of that. But elderly parents and grown up siblings makes the family situation a little lopsided. Though I have a large group of grown up nieces and nephews, that's been a constant source of fun my whole life. :-) Some of them are even older than me...
So I guess that is the greatest influence: not wanting to have a scattered family, even if my parents lived together for the rest of their lives. Though I would not frown upon any one in similar situation - to each their own. :-)
Influenced me? My parents were oooold. I should have been born in the early 50ies, not the late 60ies. No wonder I feel as I'm born in the wrong era. ;-)
Both my parents died before I was 20. Yep, that is an influence. Worst thing that can happen has already happened, basically. Nothing can ever make me as sad as I was then. But you survive, I was loved and I will always have that love within me.
I really would not want any one to have the same experience. There are far worse things, I'm well aware of that. But elderly parents and grown up siblings makes the family situation a little lopsided. Though I have a large group of grown up nieces and nephews, that's been a constant source of fun my whole life. :-) Some of them are even older than me...
So I guess that is the greatest influence: not wanting to have a scattered family, even if my parents lived together for the rest of their lives. Though I would not frown upon any one in similar situation - to each their own. :-)