It's No One's Fault
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Sent: Sunday, January 27, 2008 12:23 PM
Subject: Visitor Counter: 121,175,330
That's the thing about PostSecret -- you're never reading it alone. This site connects our hopes, fears and dreams and reminds us we're never really alone. It's going to be okay.
I was feeling like this today, sans the underlying sense of suicide. Just sad. I am technically a new student here and really haven't found a niche to call my own. My friends are really just the people I see and interact with in my classes. Outside of class, I find myself retreating to the library where I'd half-ass read my books (which does not help me at all)or find a computer and kill time. Or I'm just kinda wandering campus in circles looking like I've have somewhere to be.
Ow. Writing that hurt.
What was the kicker today was I was eating my lunch by myself in the student union and I overheard this conversation:
Girl 1,2,Guy: "Hey! It's Steve!"
Guy: " Oh, isn't he dressed all snazzy today."
Girl 2: "Aw look at him with that smile on his face, it always brightens my day to see him."
Steve: "Just dressing to impress you guys is all."
I sat there and thought to myself, "Elsewhere that's me."
I really miss everyone back in Morgantown. I terribly do. I keep telling myself that this is something that will better my future, and that's about the only thing I can look forward to right now.
I realize I'm being sad and emo, I just needed to vent. It's easiy remedied by making friends, but really it's hard starting from scratch again.
-----Email Message-----
Sent: Sunday, January 27, 2008 12:23 PM
Subject: Visitor Counter: 121,175,330
That's the thing about PostSecret -- you're never reading it alone. This site connects our hopes, fears and dreams and reminds us we're never really alone. It's going to be okay.
I was feeling like this today, sans the underlying sense of suicide. Just sad. I am technically a new student here and really haven't found a niche to call my own. My friends are really just the people I see and interact with in my classes. Outside of class, I find myself retreating to the library where I'd half-ass read my books (which does not help me at all)or find a computer and kill time. Or I'm just kinda wandering campus in circles looking like I've have somewhere to be.
Ow. Writing that hurt.
What was the kicker today was I was eating my lunch by myself in the student union and I overheard this conversation:
Girl 1,2,Guy: "Hey! It's Steve!"
Guy: " Oh, isn't he dressed all snazzy today."
Girl 2: "Aw look at him with that smile on his face, it always brightens my day to see him."
Steve: "Just dressing to impress you guys is all."
I sat there and thought to myself, "Elsewhere that's me."
I really miss everyone back in Morgantown. I terribly do. I keep telling myself that this is something that will better my future, and that's about the only thing I can look forward to right now.
I realize I'm being sad and emo, I just needed to vent. It's easiy remedied by making friends, but really it's hard starting from scratch again.