neural crossed signals

[thurisaz83]

tired, frustrated, and headachy. and stomach full of butterflies. and restless, and can't seem to breathe deep enough. i can't seem to focus, and the irritation over not being able to focus is only making me even more distracted and panicky. and i can't breathe. and my stomach is twisted up in knots. i don't even get that before exams or interviews. and i'm so tired, i just want to keep sleeping. my hands are shaking - can feel the trembling over my whole body. my heart is pounding in my head, though that could just be the headache. i feel like i'm going to throw up.

according to my body, i'm nervous or frightened. it is rare that i get to this level of adrenaline rush over anything, by the way.

now, if i can just figure out what the hell is so threatening about a quiet day at home in my room, i'll be set.