Musings
Ooh...I have a journal that is not facebook or twitter or anything my close family, employer or lover is likely to see and publicly judge me and my efforts. While I love them very much, some things aren't for/about them. I have some issues and I'm working on them. Moved 2,000 miles away to get away from bad influences in my life. I write a bit, draw some and play the guitar. I like hi-tech hardware, especially cell phones and since I'm in Los Angeles instead of Illinois (the not-Chicago part,) I may as well try my hand at an online (Youtube) video series. I'm not a professional but I think I'll learn along the way and hopefully create something interesting- something people would watch and wait for the next episode. As of now I have 12 episodes ready to be made into short 3-4 minute videos.
But yeah, I just wanted to be able to speak my mind in a place that I won't lose/forget. I don't really care who reads it I just want everyone to understand it's about me; my journal, my words and my feelings. I won't intentionally hurt or upset anyone but I also won't argue over the internet so if my life bothers you, feel free to move along.
That said, I'm trying new medications. I've switched my Celexa to Wellbutrin, I love the change. I've also been taking Geodon, the doctor's replacement for my Tegretol. It gave me horrible akathisia but I wanted to try again so she gave me Cogentin for the akathisia. I've been taking the Geodon for two days and I feel fine. I've been feeling more active but not manic, a contentedness but also the desire to get out of the apartment every now and then. I also got a script for Klonopin for the panic attacks. But I've been feeling great the last two days. I hope this is the combo for me. My only side effect now is dry mouth. I bought some biotene so it's fine. Yay.
And the weather is beautiful, sitting outside in Southern California. I do kind of miss the leaves changing color like they did in the Midwest but I'm happy here. I really hope the youtube thing works out. I just want one person to enjoy it and it will be worth it.
But yeah, I just wanted to be able to speak my mind in a place that I won't lose/forget. I don't really care who reads it I just want everyone to understand it's about me; my journal, my words and my feelings. I won't intentionally hurt or upset anyone but I also won't argue over the internet so if my life bothers you, feel free to move along.
That said, I'm trying new medications. I've switched my Celexa to Wellbutrin, I love the change. I've also been taking Geodon, the doctor's replacement for my Tegretol. It gave me horrible akathisia but I wanted to try again so she gave me Cogentin for the akathisia. I've been taking the Geodon for two days and I feel fine. I've been feeling more active but not manic, a contentedness but also the desire to get out of the apartment every now and then. I also got a script for Klonopin for the panic attacks. But I've been feeling great the last two days. I hope this is the combo for me. My only side effect now is dry mouth. I bought some biotene so it's fine. Yay.
And the weather is beautiful, sitting outside in Southern California. I do kind of miss the leaves changing color like they did in the Midwest but I'm happy here. I really hope the youtube thing works out. I just want one person to enjoy it and it will be worth it.